THE ROUTE TAKEN

I saw you from within

2012-02-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

I have no right to make judgements, for I am just as ordinary as you are. I tried to make myself believe in you, that you and I are mere humans, and we shall have common objective. When things happen, comes sorrow and fear but we will fix it and support each other. I desperately thought you and I were the same, that we cared for the person we both loved. Until today I still hope I'm right but I think I'm wrong.

I hope my mind don't wander off and do extra thinking on you. But each time I tried to put aside all the thoughts, I couldn't help it. I could not stop myself thinking how you've ill treated that person that cares for you sincerely from his heart. Each and every word and action of you disappoints me. I lost respect to you. You cannot even earn it from me.

I knew you. I knew every word you voiced out. Every little intention of yours is visible through my naked eyes. I hate to say this but please, I hope you know that in life nothing is permanent. One day you will also go through whatever that is destined for you. And please, do know that what goes around cones around. Treat people the way you want to be treated because at the end of the day, you will earn the merit for it, not I, not him.

It's never too late to change. Do understand that in life nothing is more important than your own family, and to always be considerate, love, give and serve from your heart.

We will stand by you

2012-01-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

I see you gasping for air,
It's difficult, I know.
My heart is pumping fast,
For every second here,counts.

Fearing the worst,
All I could do is to pray.
That you would somehow,
Stand up and not go despair.

Part of me is aching,
Never want to let go.
Should death do us apart,
I promise,we'll still love you so.

My grandpa, I love you,
I will always,always do.
For every moment spent with you,
It's the treasure that will keep me through.

Time to Cheer

2012-01-26T02:17:00.001+08:00

I'm not a good dancer. I can never be a good dancer. To move and shake my body is such a tough task. However for the sake of our department, my stiff movements gotta make its way for the Brightest Idea Competition held in Menara Maybank. And I'm proud to say we pull it off gracefully on stage and we walk off as a champion of the Mobile MME - Remittance via Mobile idea.

A glimpse of Mobile Money Express Rara Team

Let's start the show girls!

The one week practice pays off.

We are the champion for this bright idea!

The rara girls for Mobile MME.

Unveil the 2012

2012-01-26T02:01:00.000+08:00

I really don't blog that often. When I type this, it has been about 2 months i put my blog aside. I'm moving on. Work still need to be done. Life still goes on. And the recent Chinese New Year celebration is now left with memories.

I noticed as we grow, we need to catch up with time. It never waits. Good moments took off easily, bad moments stay a little longer. But without the bad, we will never learn to be strong. I will never learn to walk after that fall.

I used to say life is like a long, winded highway. Somehow I chose to believe life is shorter than all the measurement I could take. So resolution for this year of Dragon is to be a person that chases time by occupying myself with hell lots of activities, to always put on a broad smile no matter how difficult work is, to give and love my family with no return, and to do my all time favourite - touring and holidaying at least twice a year.

With that, I hope 2012 will at least bring some hope and if it really does end, I end it with no regrets.

My worst fear

2011-11-28T22:18:00.005+08:00

Things are going normal that day. I was out having breakfast with friends and will set off for Penang to visit my grandma in the afternoon. Since I started work, I go back every once in a month to my home, Taiping. Then my family and I would travel to Penang, my grandma's home and put up a night there. I was about to place orders at Domino's when I received that call.

My grandma met with an accident and is admitted to hospital. As nervous as I could be, I calmed myself down. "It can't be that bad. Maybe it is just a minor accident", I chose to believe. I made my way home, I saw my mum trembled. My sisters are all packing. At that point, my knees went weak. I have so much questions and fear on my head. While we travel back, complete silence filled in the car. Upon reaching Seberang Jaya's Hospital, the walk to the emergency ward was difficult. I was afraid. I couldn't breathe. My heart literally stops as though there is a huge rock against it.

Doctors say there is nothing much to be done. She had internal bleeding and looking at her age, they don't suggest operation. Everyone kept quiet. I couldn't even bring myself to look at my grandma. I cannot bear to imagine her on the hospital bed waiting for her time. My emotions are running wild, it is that scary. My heart was pumping fast, a speed I have yet to experience by far.

She is my grandma. My most loved grandparents. As I sat by her bed, I am thinking of so many things and yet I cannot figure out what I am thinking. I remembered all the good times we had. I recalled the moments spent with her during family occasions. I desperately wanted her to wake up. "I do not want her to die", I told my dad. As hard as it to accept, my dad speaks the truth. "All living things must die, one day".

I cannot accept death. I cannot tolerate death. Death to me is a death sentence. I don't understand why us, human beings are made to die one day. Today is the 3rd week since her passing, and not one day goes by without me thinking of her. Thinking of how she left us out of a sudden. Thinking of why she was destined to leave that way. My life literally crumbles. I cannot let her go. People say it is the memories you hold onto that keep you strong. The bond I shared with her can never only be measured by the amount of memories we had. Memories are not enough to keep me occupied with her non-existence. Memories are never enough to cope with our loss.

My grandma was 78. I called her the iron lady. At 18, she lost her mother. She raised 4 of her siblings single handedly, brought up 4 children of her own and 6 of her siblings’ children. She sewed and she washed to earn a living. No matter how tough her life was, she is a fighter. I don't hear her grumble, and she never fails to provide the best to all. When my sister and I were born, she handled us with care. Those 7 long years spent with her is priceless. Though I cannot recall each and every touch of it, I vividly remembered that she accompanied me throughout the 2 years of my pre-school studies. I would cry to escape classes, but she sat with me in the kindergarten until I completed my studies. She knew that education will make a difference in my life. For without her, I won’t be standing here today as what I am.

"What do you miss most about grandma?" asked Ryan. "Her cooking!”. All the children voted the same. I could not deny. She is one of the best cook in my life. But to me, she means more than just her cooking. Her inspirations, her words of wisdom, her fairness and equality, and her love for all she knew. She taught me to be a filial daughter, to be patient and righteous under all circumstances. She spoke on the importance of tolerance and forgiveness. She loved me for who I am. And I missed everything of her. I missed her voice, her gesture and how she always wore her smile. But on top of all, I really miss her, just her.

People just don't know how fine the line is between life and death. You can have the world at this very moment, the next second you could be making your way to another world. My life is simple, really. I just want all my loved ones to stay healthy and happy. And my worst fear is death, to part with all the people I loved. But despite I like it or not, change is the only permanent thing in life. Nothing lasts forever and not you, not I, not anybody will breathe eternally. It is a road that everyone will walk.

Don't spoil my stress-free holidays please

2011-10-14T17:42:00.001+08:00

Rain. Flood. Mudslides. For the past few weeks it has been raining heavily in Thailand. The water level rises, causing bad floods in Bangkok city and Ayutthaya. The problem here is, I am going to Phuket, this Sunday. I think the Phuket's weather forecast webpage has been spamed by me, that it recognises my avtivities whenever I enter Google.

I really look forward to it since work is bad for quite some time. I hope I can enjoy to the max there. I really do not want the rain to spoil everything. You know when it rains the roads are watery, you'll get wet, umbrella's up for all the time, it's troublesome and I'll get sick. I hate rains to shower the place that I am visiting. It makes me frown. It spoils my mood.

So I'm praying hard. So hard. Please do not rain, at least not when I am in the midst of exploring and discovering the beauty of Phuket.

Please stay away from me! :D

Enraged

2011-10-08T02:25:00.003+08:00

I have made my decision. This time round I will not stay quiet and take up a responsibility which I believed shouldn't be made under me. I told my colleague the other day that I wished I could put on a mask wherever I go. I want to be a person that can handle my own feelings and emotions despite knowing that things go haywire and nobody will back me up for every reasons in the world.

I never knew it is so hard to deal with people. HUMAN BEINGS, distinctively defined as intelligent and unique, having the capability of managing self and solving problems. It is true. It is. People are naturally born that way. But what happen to people nowadays?

Raj says to me the other day, "What you sow is what you reap".

I agreed, it is supposed to be this way, it is meant to be this way.
But people proves me wrong.

I don't reap what I sow.

All these time I have been sowing, or to be exact, giving in all I could, being the inferior executive that helps out here and there, and is demotivated most of the times. Why is this happening to me? Why people doesn't have the courtesy to ask in a good manner? Why I am made to take up tasks which is not clarified clearly?

You see, when I think of this, I thought hard. I weigh my options. I made my grounds clear. To be honest, I am at lost. I do not know where my actions will lead me to. People will by nature dislike rebellious human being. But as much as I do not want to be rebellious, I figured out that if I don't stand for myself, WHO Will? If I accept everything that comes to me, my as well not to live a life at all. Life is about giving and taking. I cannot be saying YES all the time and at the end of the day, people took me for granted.

I do not know why is it so difficult to me. Like what I told Cheng Yee, "If only I could swallow everything in and still deceive everybody with my happy face". But I can't. I just can't. I am not made that way.

Patience has its limit.

When it boils up to a certain level, ENOUGH is ENOUGH.

I must take control of my life.

My life is my priority.

If I don't take care of it, NOBODY will.

Being 23

2011-09-30T21:43:00.000+08:00

Life has certainly takes the toll of it. Now I know why birthday doesn't makes me go excited anymore. I felt old. Old not only in the sense of age, the inability to stay up late in the night, not achieving what I intend to i.e swimming and learning piano, not realising my dreams i.e becomes an event/wedding planner, and often, fall a few steps behind.

It frustrates me, most of the time. But who to blame if not me? I am still at my comfort zone and resisting to take a step forward. My head of department asked a brilliant question the other day. "Do you know your aim?", he asked. "Write down your aim and achieve it", he furthers says. Oh well, believe it or not that question really makes me felt so down. Well it took me days to figure out my aim. And I finally found one.

I want to marry a rich man.

I write it on a piece of paper and stick it on my CPU.

I tell myself,

I am gonna make this come true.

At 23, I should have a clearer direction of myself. I just don't have it. I just can't have it. I should be writing my aims, not my dreams. I should be realistic and not ~~fantasystic~~(I know there's no such word though).

Goodbye, Darren

2011-09-15T17:47:00.000+08:00

It is the short 7 months working with Darren that brought a little sarcarstic touch in my life. I vividly remember all the words of "wisdom" he taught me, or better, the not-so-correct facts he jokingly said.

It falls back to the past when my first day in Payments take place. I recall my first day here of which he took us out for lunch. In a blink of an eye, he left us. Well, walking to office today will never be the same as yesterday as I will not see and hear him anymore in 28th Floor, Payments. But parting and goodbye is a must for everyone, I supposed.

I would like to thank you for all the lunches you buy me,

for all the "wisdom" you taught me,

and also for the friendship that I will always cherish.

Best of luck for your future undertakings.

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2011-08-27T17:45:00.004+08:00

I've came to realise that I haven't blog for months. My colleague, Victor asked me the other day during lunch. I want to keep my blog alive but there are so many excuses that popped up just in time. For instance, my internet connection is not available, I'm busy and too tired, my days are not enough for me to do everything I used to do, exams around the corner, I'm back to hometown, etc.

So here I am trying to pen down my progression.

My first good news is I passed two seatings for my ICSA examination.

2 more final papers to go this December '11.

Second equally good news is that I have booked my ticket to Phuket,

and I'm really looking forward to it this October.

Thirdly, Maybank is giving away BONUS for employees serve less than a year, which is ME.

But of course, it is on proportionate basis. Better than zero.

My life have always been busy, or so I thought. All these years of living many things come and go. And I made a promise to myself that no matter how many things I have in the list to finish, always to put my family as priority. Without them, I will not stand on my feet today.

So when I don't blog,

~~believe me~~,

I am spending quality time with my family.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2011-08-27T17:24:00.000+08:00

Here comes again the time of the year.

30th & 31st August 2011.

Let's forgive and celebrate!

My way home

2011-08-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

It was nothing unusual about Monday. 22nd August 2011, another working day. Tired and hungry, Edwin drove to our favourite restaurant. Traffic is bad as usual, congested everywhere. It is just another day. Another Monday. But this Monday mark a significant incidence. My friend's dad passed away, in a terrible car accident. I couldn't believe my ears. I thought there were bees buzzing around. But nothing can change the truth.

Things come and go. Life and death happens to everyone. Pain and sorrow sneaks in between, tears are shed. I don't know how life is measured, nor do I know how long life one may have. I do not want to be apologetic to her, for I know apologies makes no difference. I hope she could pull through. I hope she will take time to grieve, and to let go when the time comes. I pray the best to be with her, always.

The Month of June

2011-06-12T00:18:00.001+08:00

To date, it is the 4th month I'm with Maybank. My progression is okay, not too well versed with everything, but I'm slowly taking each and every step carefully. I learnt from the very basic up to some technical projects, handling the ever stacking-up-high files, sipping coffees in between, chewing sweets often enough and this routine goes on everyday.

I like my job. I don't love my job. Perhaps the job description doesn't fit my expectations but I am still taking it easy. I like many things in my office, but dislikes a certain amount of things that I cannot tolerate. As a working adult, It is never easier than being a mere student. Relationships are of paramount importance, it's either you catch it or you lose it. People put on masks and all you can see is the wide smile they carry with them. Who knows what's behind the evil smile?

When I put on my attire early in the morning, I yearn to see and learn new things. But when I made my way in the lift, I realised that I am dragging my feet to my department. Four months is more than enough for me to observe and understand the culture of an organisation. And no doubt, it is always as what others mentioned to me. Should I fit in or should I reserve myself?

It's really not that I don't love my job. I have helpful colleagues, there are always extreme laughter rather than tears, but when it comes to job description, when it comes to responsibility, when it comes to upholding one's task, most of them fail. Is that so in every organisation or it is just the unfortunate me to go through this?

I'm not grumbling, I am thankful though. At least I have seen a whole lot more rather than to always believe that this world actually provide free lunches.

Tomorrow will always be a better day. =)

I hope I see life through their eyes

2011-05-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

Perkampungan Orang Asli Serendah in Rawang. We arrived early in the morning. Helping out with the setting of the place. And I as usual chose balloons over everything. =D

After all the pre-setting up and speeches given by MC, it's time for games.The villagers participated excitedly. They volunteered themselves and play hard!

This guy from right really give out the best of him. Winning few rounds an still racing hard!

An event wouldn't be complete without lunch break! =) I volunteered to serve!

She took 3 cups of ice-cream. I wonder how many has she had before in her life? Is being aborigine different from us? Do they enjoy less than us? Are they less equipped? Are they less contented?


They may have fewer chances to live life like us. They may not see this real world often. Their life may be less comfortable, not as advanced as us, and they do not possess handphones nor internet access. They earn little for living, they eat and dress just enough for them to go through their day. They are simply that simple. Hoping just enough, within their capability, striving the best for their family. I hope I really see life though their eyes. We are asking just too much sometimes. We never stop and ponder what we already have in hand. All we ever do is to ask for more, and forever more. I've been there in their village for half a day, and it felt like years because I cannot get used to the way they are living life. I on the other hand have so much, and yet I still yearn for more. What am I compared to them? Who am I to grumble when I'm already living my life in the best possible way, a life many others don't have?

I wanna be thankful.

I wanna be contented.

I wanna see life through their eyes.

Simple and fulfilling.

The woman next to the escalator

2011-04-12T12:23:00.001+08:00

I remembered since day one I work for Maybank, this calm looking lady has always been around. She would sit on a stool beside the escalator and place a tissue-contained box on her lap. With a smile and a will, she quietly attracts passers-by to buy the tissue papers from her. She is blind. She has no eye sight.

As i make my way up the escalator, I put myself in her situation. If i wake up one day knowing I can't see, I think I'll go paranoid. I tried closing my eyes as if I have lost my eye sight, and within seconds, I quickly opened them. I thought and thought. Being a normal person, I had it all, all complete. I have a whole lot of choices of food and I'm still being picky. I spend hours in my wardrobe to dress up to my best. I can take close look on my family and friends, I am able to tell if they have a new haircut and how well they are doing. Because I can see. I have eye sight. But many times I make mistakes. I got upset when I see things that are not in my favour. I don't always do things that I am suppose to do even there is a need to complete them. I sometime fell off the road while crossing. I choose to believe in my eyes rather than judging from my heart. I see false perceptions all the time but I believe they are the truth. I have eye sight. And I doesn't make full use of it. Or should I say, having eye sight still makes me a careless, terible, ignorant person?

I'm feeling so down for the past one month. I put on a mask whenever I'm around people. Friends that care enough to know, they can see right through my expression. I smile, I laugh, I talk, but a huge part of me is aching. Despite these, my courage to face my problem is obviously less than that visually impared lady. Despite knowing that she can no longer see the colors of life anymore, she still have that strong will to live. She doesn't know what her food will look like. She wouldn't know what is she wearing. She doesn't know who's by her side. She will have a hard time taking care of herself. She is direction blind. The lists goes on. But she knows one thing for sure. She knows how to make the best out of it. She knows how to carry on life.

People ask "What can be worst than losing your eyesight"?

And God answers "Losing your vision".

It is true. But how many people can do that? If they are hit by the reality that they will soon not being able to see this world anymore, what is the first thing on their mind? Will they cry and cry and lose hope? Will they choose to end their life? Will they blame others or simply, noted that it is their destiny? A 20 year old boy discovered he has brain tumour years ago. The doctor gave him two choices. "His eyes, or his life". He chose his life. Today, he is one successful top SPM scorer in the country. He managed to live his life. He does not lose faith. He succeeded in whatever he wants to do.

I think life is all about destiny. It is all about fate. Take a moment and think about this. Why do people smoke and not getting lung cancer? Why people who are health conscious but ended having cancerous cells in their lung with no records of smoking at all? Do you think that this is not fair? Don't you think that if you practise a good lifestyle, the chances that you will most likely to live a healthy life is very high? And why the unfortunate things still happen? FATE.

It's all about FATE, that's what my dad told me. If it's destined to be you, it will be you no matter how much precautions you take. If it's never you, you can endanger your life to what-so-ever reasons and yet you will still stand on this planet looking great. I hate to admit this fact, really. Being mortal doesn't feel right. I'm just as ordinary as anyone out there. I will feel pain, I will shed tears. But what more can I do? I cannot predict the future. I don't know what will happen to me next minute.

People don't know how fine is the line between life and death.

And that is when people start to take things for granted.

I want to really cherish my life.

I want people around me to feel good.

I want them to feel loved and I want to be their strength.

I want them to lead a fulfilling life, forever more.

My not- so-good days

2011-04-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

A lot happened lately. My mind has been doing lotsa thinking, much to the level where my head would spin and I ended up not sleeping. I am awake for many nights, I cannot eat well, and work went so wrong. I could not function the way I always do, I made mistakes, I am tired.

Now i really understand the meaning of "always expect the unexpected". I know this verse has always been around, but most of the time I choose to just believe it, and not acknowledging that things actually happen without me realizing it. My life has never been this down before. I have never allow myself to have such amount of sadness in me before but right now, right here, I am still feeling down, up to the point where I find life meaningless.

Until I came across Teoh Beng Hock's case today when I was registering myself for the next election. These past few weeks has been hell for me, and I doubt when could I get through this. But again I thought, if I put myself in such position of which I think there is nothing worth living for me and that everyone else is so lucky except me, I am wrong. So wrong.

Teoh Beng Hock died a day before he is supposed to get married. He left behind his pregnant wife all alone to go through life. What will you do when you are supposed to walk down the aisle and now realizing that you will walk this life-ALONE? How would you grieve for someone you loved so deeply for leaving you without you knowing it?I don't know. I couldn't handle this for sure.

My 9years old sister died of leukemia. I remembered that I only wept once, on her funeral. How my parents deal with her death? How can they face the reality for not having the chance to see their child grow up? What it feels like to not have the opportunity to ever speak to her again?Again, I don't know how they go through this.

My grandmother's mother died from giving birth. My grandmother was only 20 that time, and she has brothers and sisters, including the newborn. How she accept the fact that she has just lost her mother, a person that is so important for her? How she go through all these and at the same time carries the burden on her shoulder that she needs to take care all of them on behalf her mother?I certainly cannot go through this.

My friends lost their parents to cancer. Most of them took it easily, but some of them find it hard to accept. I wake up everyday knowing that I am loved. What if one day I can no longer be loved by them?

Japan's tsunami took thousands of lives away. Imagine yourself having the best moment with people that you loved today, and disaster struck tomorrow and you lost those you loved. How would you deal with that? One minute you are with them, the next minute you cannot even take a second look at them. You don't even have the chance to bid goodbye.

I cannot tolerate death. I just cannot. Death is a death sentence to me. Death meaning that I lost so much that I couldn't bear knowing what I have just lost. Whenever I think of this, I am at lost. I fear death. I know people will somehow die one day, regardless how old one is, but why? Why death must happen? I loved my family so much, to the extent that I want the very best for them and I could risk all I had for them. Hurting them kills me. Loving them weakens me. Sometimes I wished I am an orphan, so that no matter what happen I wouldn’t feel the pain and sorrow for the people I loved.

I know I’m far more fortunate than a lot people out there. At least I have lived double my sister’s age. I have great people around me, I have the most amazing family, I had it all. Why I allowed myself to cry over things that I couldn’t change? Why would I bother to grieve over the fact that I cannot change things anymore? Why can’t I live like tomorrow will be the last? I’m not a strong person. I never am. I stumble upon little things. I am just that way.

The 2012 stigma has been around for some time, and I hope it really does come true. If death really will do us apart, let death happen to all of us for once and for all.

I Pray

2011-03-16T01:18:00.002+08:00

Please let it come true.

Working Sunday

2011-03-09T13:29:00.000+08:00

My responsibilities had piled up! More and more each day. Stress is slowly on the way. I just hope I can manage well. I don't want to be labeled as useless/ not efficient/ hopeless/ irresponsible/etc.

This Sunday is a non-restday day for me. There's an event regarding Maybank Money Express held in Kelab Sultan Sulaiman. I'm one of the officers in-charge. Ah, this event is in an open field of which the set up will be like a carnival look-alike. Suddenly it feels like I'm having Hari Sukan. =)

I love events! Not only I love attending them, I love setting up the place, pumping air into the balloons, arranging mineral bottles and food, arranging tables and chairs, and making sure all the little details are correctly placed. My most-dreamed ambition is to be an event planner, much to do with weddings if possible, because I just couldn't resist the pretty blooming flowers, the lacey ribbon on the chairs, the elegance of decorated churches, and to witness the significant moment of peoples' life.

Okay people! Enough of my ever lengthy dream. Now back to reality. I wanna enjoy this event to the fullest!

It's not the last

2011-03-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

19th Feb 2011 was my Bachelor Degree convocation which was held in KLCC. As hectic as it can ever be, that place is filled with people from the entire universe. I can barely walk straight in the hallway. Photos with friends are difficult, unless you are lucky enough to bump into them.

It's a very busy day, we were scheduled to register and collect the robe, taking group photos right after, have a very brief breakfast, and head right into the hall. And oh, when it's my turn, I cannot believe that I almost slipped. The stage, oh my freaking god, it was so slippery! Much to my delight that the principal took few steps forward and quickly wrapped me in his strong arms. That moment was so nerve-wrecking. I'm so embarrassed!

And here goes the climax. I thought I was the worst ever to be put into that situation, but before I realize it, there's another girl actually do fell on that stage. I felt so bad for her. Imagine yourself on this important day receiving scroll on the stage, and you fell, flat!

When you fall, get up. Otherwise you'll keep on falling.

She got up, she put on a smile, and walk down the stage with pride. I admire her courage. I really do.

This convocation puts an end to my life in university. I hope I will one day continue in graduate school.
I hope I can make it one day.

Housemates in Liverpool.

Lookin good. =)

Me & him.

My most adored family. =)

First Week Excitement

2011-02-27T11:30:00.008+08:00

Call it luck, I had great fun during my entire first week! One of the highlight here is the Townhall Event of which "Growth" is the theme this time. Okay, you readers may be a little lost right now. In Maybank we have "TIGER" core values of which stands for Teamwork, Integrity, Growth, Excellence and Efficiency, and Relationship building.

Being the newbies in this department, Leon and I were assigned to help on the decorations of the Townhall, *LOL* (executive turned designers), and we were up to the task. Energy pumped up, we cut and paste, etc, and we get all the boards done before the event roll by which is on the next day.

We are supposed to travel to Dataran Maybank (Etiqa) for the event, and we were there early, to help out with the set-up and all. This event was supposed to coincide with the Cny celebration, and so we got few Chinese characters to put up on the wall. Shame on Leon and I, we are clueless because both of us are literally "banana". We were asked to be there early because they wanted us to identify the Chinese characters. Everybody had a great laugh, fortunately, we had some other colleagues to sort it out.

Time for lunch, the food are okay, they prepared chicken, mutton, veggies, cakes, desserts, etc, our stomach are well served. And so the event begins. Again, being the newbies, we were asked to be time keeper, which is very interesting. Every 5 minutes talk, and there will be a reminder for them. Next activity required teamwork, whereby we have to answer 20 general questions and design something out of the "growth" theme. And I'm proud to say, our team won second runner-up. =)

I personally enjoyed this event so much, I think this is a perfect way for all the staff to mingle around, get to know each other, and deepens their understanding on the core values. I'm really looking forward for more to come. I totally heart it. =D

Leon and I at work!

The helpers.

With colleagues.


Us, the time keeper.

Mr Choong, Head of Payments and Wealth. Don't you think he looks like Allan Wu from Amazing Race Asia?

Oh we had "lou sang" too.

The Wealth and Payments team.

My very First job

2011-02-15T18:20:00.001+08:00

14th Feb 2011 was supposed to be a very memorable day for most people, but I'm more than proud to say this very date confirms my employment with Maybank. So I'm officially a Maybanker now. My first day started off at 8.45am, of which I shall give credit to Menara Maybank for doing a impressive job, of which they had staff guiding us upon opening new account, taking the photo of us for our Maybank passes, and also, leading us to different department of which we were assigned.

As soon as my two other new colleague and I reached my department at 28th Floor, we were introduced to all the colleagues and our Head of Payments and we were placed accordingly. To my surprise, that department comprises of at least 70% chinese of which I really do think it is a rare sight in Maybank. And so my day in Maybank begins. That very day is nothing but boredom. We were given a manual and we were expected to study each and every of the product. So we figured out that we need to photocopy it so that we can read it back home. Therefore, my first task that day is to learn how to operate the photocopy machine.

By noon we had one of our colleague asking us to join for lunch. That walk to the restaurant is a hell to me. My heels is hurting my toes. Anyway, lunch is great because my stomach had been making weird sounds since morning. And many thanks to my colleague who foot the bill. After lunch was again, BORING. Imagine yourself study 3cm thick manual for one whole day. I'm bored to death.

5.45pm is our happy hour! But being new in the department, I questioned the possibility of leaving punctually at 5.45pm. I ended up sitting there for 15minutes more before we were told that we can actually leave. Ah, what a day! =)

First day is always that nerve-wrecking. You can literally feel your body temperature fall way below than normal, you have your hands all cold and sweaty, and you are often loss at words. But I like my colleagues, and I think that department is quite a stress-free one. Or at least, I hope so.

My office! =)

Rabbit Year

2011-02-09T01:05:00.001+08:00

Despite the long holidays everybody has, this Chinese New Year passes so fast! And practically, this year all we actually do is..Ahem..

Receiving angpaus which is A MUST,

Placing bets on poker cards, A SECOND MUST,

Drinking Liquor like nobody's business, THE ULTIMATE MUST.

Now where had all the old good tradition gone to? I used to play snail racing with cousins in the past, eating all sorts of cookies, buying same design t-shirts with different colors, and popping pop-pops up to 100boxes at least. So are you telling me that grown ups have different way of celebrating Chinese New Year or simply 2011 indicates that it's time to change? If I were to choose, I would prefer snail racing than gambling, I would love to stuff all the cookies in my stomach compared to bottles of liquors. I would love to have everybody back home, rather than each of us go our separate ways. Reunion is of paramount importance, and good time passes real fast. May this year gives us love, prosperity and loads of wealth!!

♥Happy Rabbit Year♥

Management Trainee or Payment&Wealth Exec?

2011-01-24T18:24:00.000+08:00

Both offer great job scope, lucrative benefits, but I couldn't decide. I don't know what to choose. Management Trainee is very sales oriented but they offer a very high pay. I will be given sales target every month and if I fail them, I don't think the company will confirm me. Payments&Wealth Exec, good location, having to do less sales-oriented job, I think I'm better at this, and no sales means stress-free. But again, how should I choose? Both have pros and cons, and I'm so clueless now!

Please call me!

2011-01-14T03:35:00.000+08:00

Been through several interviews, another to go next week, but why my phone just wouldn't ring??

Waiting is all I do now.

And I hate to wait.

Please, please do give me a ring!

Welcome, 2011.

2011-01-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

Another year has come! This reminds me of what my best friend always says. 21st Dec 2012, end of the world. So here we are, another day closer to the "end of the world". I don't know the truth beyond it though.

Well let's take a glimpse of my life in 2010. Usually I don't have much highlights but 2010 definitely is one of the best. I remember having holidays from February till May and then flew off to Liverpool for my credit transfer. Never had I visited so many countries before in such a short period of time.

England (Liverpool, Manchester, London, Oxford, Whitby, Sheffield, Lake District, Cheshire Oaks)

Wales (North Wales, Snowdonia)

Ireland (Dublin)

Scotland (Edinburgh, Glasgow, Inverness, Loch Ness, Dundee)

Holland (Amsterdam)

Belgium

Luxemburg

Germany (Munich)

Austria

Italy (Rome, Venice, Florence, Milan

Switzerland

France (Paris)

Beautiful places visited, but still, I prefer the city of Liverpool. It feels like my second home. I'm so used to waking up everyday at 7am, prepare lunch boxes for my housemates and then take the 45minutes walk to my uni. Once lectures and tutorials ends, I make my way to Liverpool city centre of which I would spend the rest of my days shopping until it's time to head home to prepare dinner. Somehow I really do like the lifestyle of United Kingdom. I hardly grumbles having to walk everyday, and I like the weather there because I hate to sweat back here in Malaysia. You can see rather few cars moving on the road, people there usually walk. And although my schedule are packed, for heaven's sake, I have never enjoy my life like this before. I actually love Liverpool so much that it felt so bad when I gotta leave. Bidding goodbye to my second home is so hard.

Okay, back to reality. 2011. This is the 3rd day already, and I'm still here, in front of the screen, jobless. Still doing the job hunting thingie, and it started to get really bored. Working life really, it sounds sickening to me. I felt so so so sad that now I'm a grown up and it seems I haven't got enough of a student's life. I still have dreams of going to classes and escape to somewhere during my semester breaks but here I am, looking for jobs that probably only entitle me 24days annual leave, and of course, constant working hours. I felt sick.

Sometimes, many times in fact, I wish what my best friend says is true. I hope the world would end so that I wouldn't have to go through the process of an working adult. I wish my life would stop at 17 and repeats forever at 17. It sounds great, doesn't it?

Okay, I know. I know I seriously need some new year's resolution. But how am I gonna start? I'm so clueless. Omg. I never thought I will go through this phase of my life. I seriously need to figure out some resolutions before 2011 comes to an end.

Ah I'm so gonna miss that again!

2010-12-22T18:16:00.000+08:00

Glutinous rice balls. You would not believe how much I actually adore them. I can eat cups and cups and cups of them and still ask for more. I love them in various colors, green and white being my favourite. But ever since I graduated from high school, I don't get to eat them for years already. My grandmother being the best cook in our home, she make the most delicious glutinous rice balls. I would say the glutinous rice balls she make are rather simple, but that taste simply keep me occupied for very long time. So this year, again I will miss it, I hope I could be there to enjoy this tradition with her, but it seems impossible. I pray for next year though. I really do hope next year I could eat cups and cups and cups of them again.

These pictures were took when my grandma specially make glutinous rice balls for me when I cannot make it home on the exact day. And they were amazing!

We use up the whole packet of glutinous rice flour!

It's cook! You have to put them in cold water first before you put them in the soup that you had boiled separately.

See how my grandma instructs him?


It's ready to be served!

I really wanna eat them up so much!! Too bad I'm not at my grandma's place! =(

Uncertainties

2010-12-21T20:10:00.002+08:00

You know that sometimes your day is as bright as the brightest day ever, and you'll feel yourself much like a bumble bee, acknowledging the fact that you are one of the most fortunate person on earth, the next moment you might lose it all in a single blink.

Take that young man's suicidal for instance. His girlfriend of 4months left him, he jumps to his death. Can life be measured just like this? Does losing love means losing everything? He had good four months and now he is a lost soul.

Okay maybe death is a little too much cuz it doesn't really happens to everyone. Hrmm, what about friendship? Two best friends, shared most of their life with each other, grew apart when misunderstandings arise. You had your best friend by your side throughout the years, and one second is enough to break the bond that you made.

Family. I have always pictured the word "family" to be very contented, happiness all around, lotsa love and you can literally feel the warmth of each others' presence. But because of greed, money and hatred, they turn on each others' back.

I don't know this little thing called life. Life is suppose to be colorful, simple yet fulfilling, challenging but promising. I often wondered if Life is the same for everyone, wouldn't it be much easier to deal with? But life would lose it's value then. "Imagine everyone is able to have the same thing that you have", my best friend points out. "You would not even strive for better things is life", he says.

Life is about inequality, of which you yourself got to decide which route you wanna take. Don't worry about all the disaster that fall upon you, because then you would grow and blossom. When one door closes, another opens. You'll see light in each darkness.

When life give you hundreds and hundreds reasons to cry,

show life that you got thousands and thousands of reasons to smile.

If everyone else can do that,

I bet you can do the same.

You know how I've always Loved you.

2010-12-08T05:36:00.002+08:00

Long ago before I'm attached, I would always imagine and assure myself that my future boyfriend will have to be a tall, presentable lad, well educated, smoke-free/ drug-free, take good care of me, love me for who I am, but most importantly, speaks excellent English. English is my life I would say, because back then, I cannot speak Mandarin at all. So eventually I grew not to like Mandarin and speak solely English. I did really hold onto my principles that I don't take a second look at those Chinese educated boys that were after me.

So how do I ended up with a Chinese educated boyfriend? I wanna keep the story short though. Well we started off as classmates. He dislikes me, rude and playful being the reasons. Somehow I manage to get the hint, and I stayed away. Who would have guessed one fine day he was in need of laptop, and me being the only one who have it that time, borrowed him without any hesitation. I was so concerned of his assignment that I happily asked him to bring my laptop home to finish off his homework.

Little did I know that this act of kindness change his impression towards me. But hey, I was stupid, really, borrowing a laptop to a friend I knew not more than a month? Hell no! I'm not gonna do that in future. He began to treat me differently and this is how our story starts. I didn't know that I was so attracted to him that I don't mind he speaks Mandarin 24/7. And no, he's not really that tall, he stands at 173cm only. Good grades? I'm clueless. Yeah, no smoking, no drugs, that's the most I knew. But he takes really good care of me. Out of so many, I liked the way he connects himself to me. He's more like a soul mate, he understands what I'm thinking, he can talk to me about just anything in the world without judging me.

And I never realized it has been 4 years. The 4 long years that brought us together, sharing bits of joy and happiness, laughter and pain. I remember how he assures me that the sun will shine after each heavy rain pour. He lets me know that life can be as colorful as rainbow. And I always adore how he would wrap me in his arms, and whisper "I love you". I love the way he runs his finger through my hair. And I miss how he would always hold me tight, letting me know that I would always have him to rely on. I like the promises he made, that often when I face obstacles in life, I know he will be right at the end waiting for me. I know that no matter how many times I fail in my life, he will be my guidance, he will be my light.

But not all fairytale are as sweet as cotton-candy. We did fought, we disagree with each other, we are simply two different creature that happens to fall for each other. Despite all that, loving him carries a deeper meaning to me. I love how he will always make up to me each time we argued. I love how he would prepare lunch and dinner just to let me taste home-cooked food. I love how he takes the effort to give me facial treatment when I'm lazy to wash my face. I love the way he sings to me at the nights when I cannot sleep. And I love how he would change the cloth on my forehead when I was having fever, and feeding me his home-cooked porridge. And I love how he would make me sit up straight and teach me my dreadful subjects, Accounting, Law, Finance, and Taxation.

And he turned out okay. Well at least, almost similar to my expectations. Haha. Not so tall, but presentable, distinction holder and also book prize winner, smoke-free / drug-free, speaks Mandarin and English too, take good care of me still, and loves me for who I am, no doubt. I just love each and every little thing he ever did for me. I really do.

I couldn't find any reason to stop loving him. I'm glad it has been 4 years long. And I hope there will be more to come. But until then, I just wanna let him know that I appreciate him more than I ever could imagine.

And I hope he knows.

Happy 4th Anniversary, my dear!

New Friend of Mine

2010-12-06T03:40:00.001+08:00

It was a busy Thursday morning like usual. I made my way to Sg. Wang for my 7days part time job for Playboy and Adidas. All nervous and sweating cuz I have to search for the entrance of Parkson. And while I'm busy asking the guards, a girl suddenly tap on my shoulder and asked, "Are you under Sharon?". I immediately nodded and guess what? Instant friend! We walked to the exact location, again, sweating. Haha.

10 to 10 is really no joke. Although we are wearing flats, we could feel our leg aching, like so severe. First day usually is the longest. Not many customers passed by, normally those there looking for expensive perfumes, not those we are selling. Middle-East tourist took interest in the brands we are promoting though. Sales were so-so, we got really bored, and talking always takes place when you have nothing to do.

And oh! My this little new friend, she is taller than me by 2cm, she called herself Fish! Bubbly personality, she is the most positive thinking person I've ever met. She smiles like 24/7, she got really excited over foods, and incredibly she cannot grow fat no matter how much she consume. 7 days with her is fun, we talked so much, sometimes we share stories like we have known each other for years.

Often, we have different perception in almost everything in the world, well, like for instance, Wang Lee Hom is handsome for her, but for me, I think he sucks big time. She thinks the world is fair and just, I think the world is corrupted. She likes Ck Perfume's bottle, I think it looks simply normal. Many more on the list, haha, but however I like her attitude of always being able to look at the best of every situation she is in. She hardly grumbles, she does all she can, always stay active and manage her life in a happy-go-lucky manner. As for myself, I kept things to my own, got so stress over things that is not even an issue to me, stuck in the situation that I often claim I couldn't get out, but in fact, I could be like her if I wanted to be.

I mean, I can smile all the way, I can always look at the bright side of everything, I can always get up when I stumble, I can be myself. But why am I not this way? Guess to have that optimistic thinking is not as easy as ABC. It requires courage, it requires ability, and it requires willingness. I like how she carries herself. I see the light in her that often shine all way through. Who would not love to have her around? =)

I'm always a believer of change. Nothing else matter if one refuses to change. Change is the key to success. Being optimistic is hard, but I hope I could at least smile like her.

And yeah, this job is not one of the best I've ever had due to its working hours and its wages, but I gained a friend. And that's what that counts.

Happy-go-lucky Fish and I.

Loads to pen down!

2010-12-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

I've got a whole long list to blog about. My grandma's simple birthday celebration, my working experiences for Playboy and Adidas, my trip down to KL, my bf's birthday, etc. I just got so much to write. But obviously it's not today. Will do it soon. And I mean it. =)

I Graduated! =)

2010-11-18T05:55:00.000+08:00

Convo fever!

2010-11-12T13:06:00.000+08:00

For a Bachelor Degree I'll be having a total of 3 convocations! Lucky me or it's a little too much to handle cuz everybody else only had one single convocation and I have to go all THREE. I thought I would grumble and dread attending them but surprisingly I'm very much excited!

This time round would be my second convo.

13 November 2010,

I will once again walk up the stage,

and although not with First Class Title,

but I'm more than proud because at least,

I completed my studies.

Looking back at my college years, it started off pretty good. Met loads of new friends, hanging out with each other, attending the ever bored tutorials, skipping lectures to elsewhere, celebrating birthdays, having semester trips, gossiping, shopping spree together, and oh I felt life is really treating me good, if not great. But as time passes by, I began to see the real side of reality, or more precise, the truth that lies beneath. I don't know about others but i felt that things that I thought were super great at first all turned out bad.

People enjoyed their college studies, and come to think of it, I couldn't really remember anything I had done in this college. Active not, I never took the opportunity to join the society except for once I chose to be helper for MAICSA event. Friends come and go, most of them stayed but 4 years is more than enough for me to see their true color. I think I'm much fated to encounter lotsa not so good ones and those really good ones are like heaven made, so rare, and very true. All in all, I still think it's a very eye opening process during the years at Tarc, I learned alot, but also, loss a whole lot more. But it's Okay, really, it is Okay, because I'm more a wiser person now.

If you ask me what I miss the most about college now, I would say the life as a student. Owning such carefree schedule, having the heart as a young person, wanting to always try out new things. Just the other day that I went to collect my robe, the path back to Function room was so familiar and yet I felt so old. Feeling that I don't belong there anymore. I have grown up. I know at my age now, I wouldn't do things like an 18 year old. I saw many young people in the School of Business Studies, dressed confidently, in their own little world, having the best time of their life. I couldn't deny, I do envy them. I miss the 18 year old me.

Aarrrgghhhh..Everyone does grow old isn't it? Changes is so hard for me, so hard to understand and adapt. Despite all these, I still grow old! How ironic is that! Okay, okay, enough of my grumbling, I shall look ahead for my convocation tomorrow. And oh, acknowledge that I am no longer 18 anymore. =)

Hello KL!

2010-11-07T22:18:00.000+08:00

Will be here for one week for my Advance Diploma Convocation in Tarc. Everything I do now always reminds me that I need to get a job soon! Sigh! AHHhhh, growing up is alot harder!! But you know what, I'm gonna rock this convo and party hard before I enter adulthood and step into the offices doing paperwork! =)

Everyone has problems!

2010-11-01T02:46:00.002+08:00

This is a fact. Every now and then I'll let myself to be surrounded by all the sadness and couldn't stop myself from thinking negatively. I cannot be that girl that is always uplifting, always carry a broad smile and greet the people who make my life miserable. I just simply can't do that. But as I'm going through the inspirational stories from the internet, I realized, that there will always be a room for sorrows to make its way, hence, I shall also let it end, and acknowledge the presence of happiness soon after. There will always be a time when I'm so down while reflecting all the sad memories and remembering how "friends" were actually are, but now, at this very moment, I'm gonna think of this for another second or two, and I'm gonna let go. Letting go is all I have to do.

Cheers!!

I can't wait for Tuesday....

2010-11-01T01:26:00.000+08:00

Can't wait to see you!

Have been missing you so much lately! =)

The Break Up

2010-10-29T03:45:00.002+08:00

6 years relationship.

Shared the world.

Tasted the heaven.

Love like no other.

It ends. Yes, it ENDS. She couldn't help it. A relationship that she has been clinging on so long, way too long, and it ends, right now. "WHY?", she asked. She couldn't understand. He dump her because of career, because of his future. The question is, "IS HE SELFISH?"

Love itself is fair. He loves you, you love him. But love cannot guarantee happy ending. He wanted to take another step, a step nearer to his career, to a better life. And he is not comfortable with long distance relationship anymore. He's afraid that it might took him too long to be away. He cannot stand the pain of not having you by his side. Even so, knowing you could wait, he still stand upon his decision, he cannot tolerate long distance relationship, not anymore. Well oh, that's what he said. So he choose to end it. So he gets the career, and you get nothing. "IS HE SELFISH?"

Rationally speaking, YES, he is SELFISH. 6 years. Not short. 6 years is as long as completing a Degree and even a Masters. 6 years after, he claimed that he is NOT SURE. Not sure of whether you are the one. Not sure of whether how long this relationship can work. Not sure of everything you ever had with him. Not sure of the vow both of you made. Not sure of the love that reunites you and him. If he is ever that "not sure", he should have done so few years back before he further his studies. He should have let you know that this love-story might not work in future. But he gave you the world, he made you believed in him. And he is leaving you now. So he is selfish.

But again, in LOVE, there is nothing right and there is nothing wrong. Yes, he chooses his career over you. He said he is uncertain of the love he had for you. He is not sure whether you can be the Miss Right. All these doesn't happen overnight. Sometimes as we grow, we see lots of things, we venture into new environment, we think from a different perspective. And this "sometimes", tend to lead us to another angle of which it may entirely change ourselves. In love, there is no such thing as selfish. Yes he changed. And sometimes you don't even need a reason to change. A person is capable enough to know when the feelings supposed to twist and turn. He might sounds like he is coming up with lotsa reasons, lotsa uncertainties, lotsa excuses perhaps, and as much as you don't wanna let go, as much as he is probably doing the wrong thing ethically, still, there is no wrong to it.

He might be thinking of himself only, and it sounds unfair to you, but did you ever think that if he is uncertain and he still carry on, and probably another 6 years later, one fine day he wakes up, and he knew that there is no turning point, decides to leave you, wouldn't that be a little too much for you? Positively thinking, although it has been 6 years, but isn't that better to end it now rather than another few years to go and you still end up like this?

Babe, love come and go without you noticing it. Sometimes it is a fairytale, but many times fairytale never exist. You got to stumble and fall quite a few times before you finally meet the right one. Appreciate the love you had with him, endure the pain of losing him, and stand up to be the girl I once knew, again. You lost the battle, it may cost your everything, however in this world, there are so much to offer. Losing him doesn't mean losing yourself. You may need a long time to get over him, and it's okay. We understand. But you, it's you that determine whether to get up or to continue falling.

Remember,

no man in the world is worth your tears

unless

they shed theirs for you too.

Meaning-Of-Life

2010-10-27T02:54:00.001+08:00

Be born : Check
Go to school : Check
Do well : Check
Graduate : Check
Look for a job : On the way

Now this is the case. When the reality hits, I am again the person who look back and wonder why I'm here today, this FAST. Dreading to be dressed like an OL and drag my ass to work seems like a big deal to me. My mind wander all around, way too behind and into the past of why, why and WHY my 4 entire years of college studies has visibly ended this very moment.

I'm very much a loser. Hardly did I ever done anything that I won't regret when it comes to the end. Take my studies for instance. Each time I wanna earn a good grade, I never put effort in it. Certificates - Each time I vowed to keep it safe but I lost so many pieces of them. Speaking of UK then. UK experiences are so fulfilling, but when i recall, I should have went to even more places since I have the chance to be there, but I didn't! Etc, Etc, and Etc.

My dad says I'm lazy. My bf complains that I never put my heart in doing things that I am doing. Oh yes. They are right. I slept till 12pm in the noon, had my brunch right after, and then HK drama series, right till I have my dinner. Am I gonna do this over and over again? I have been doing this for almost a month. And i just felt so lazy. Lazy to get up. Lazy to work. Lazy to do everything.

I wanna just be right back to my normal student life. I wanna have classes and exams and semester breaks. Easy life, no worries, allowance every month, shopping spree and holidays!!

Look at me now. A soon to be working adult. No more fooling around. No more having fun. No more this and that. All I ever have now is the ever needed determination to find myself a good job.

And the life cycle continues.

Make money : On the way

Save money : On the way

Marry somebody : On the way

Make babies : On the way

Buy a house : On the way

Life Goes On..

The Exact One Month!

2010-10-21T02:42:00.000+08:00

Okay!I didn't blog for a month already! Can't believe that after touring to so many countries I am ever lazier to pen down details of my life! In fact i felt that the more I wait and wait and wait, the more I choose not to blog! My memories are all piled up. And now, don't think i'll be able to blog upon all the places I have went! Arghh! How I wish I could chase back time!

Anyway, now i have much more important things to do!

Gonna get my resume ready!

Gonna hit Job.Street.com!

Gonna get myself nice working attires!

Gonna rock the working world!

You can imagine how excited I am now. XD

Okay Okay! I'm not excited! I don't even wanna take a second look at my halfway prepared resume. I don't even wanna go online and make applications. All I wanna do right now is to rewind the time, return to United Kingdom, taste the heaven-made life, and take joy in whatsoever it offers me there. I miss my student life. I totally miss it so much, That much. Too much. I couldn't deny I love it there. I wanna go back! And I just can't. And so, Welcome to the reality.

22 on 22nd Sept, in France!

2010-09-22T13:22:00.000+08:00

Alright! Happy Birthday to me! Being 22 on 22nd of Sept, somehow it makes me feel rather different this year! And yes, I'm in France, Paris to be exact, (=, and I get to eat French meal.

Sounds so tempting, but I really miss Malaysia back home.

I miss my family, and my every year's wish is to have the opportunity to spend this day with them.

And it coincides with the Mooncake Festival back there!

I wanna go home, the sooner the better!

Can't wait for it, but for now, I can't wait to eat French meal! =)

Last Paper in Ljmu

2010-08-29T04:02:00.000+08:00

Here it comes again, nothing but exam. It bores me sometimes to study and study and study. Last paper to go, I should be studying real hard but instead, i spent my whole day watching drama. It's not that I don't fear the exams, in fact it is so nerve wrecking, but I couldn't bring myself to face the fact that the exam is just two days away.

Whenever the exam is around the corner, my mind start to wander around, not knowing where to go or how to start, and each time I face problems that I couldn't explain. Loads and loads of things in the world that I couldn't explain, they seem strange and hard to understand but I'm trying real hard to put aside all of them. I hope I will never face such problems in future again but I know I will always have them in future. Anyway, I knew them too well and it just won't go off.

I hope this time I won't be influenced by those things ever again.

Happy 50th Birthday Daddy!

2010-08-19T05:37:00.000+08:00

I know I am late for this, daddy please do forgive me. Liverpool's day is never ending and I have so little time to do so much thing. I just wanna let you know that this very special day can't be spent together really ache my heart. I love you and that is all I knew, and I promise you a luxurious meal once I'm home. And also the lawn mower that you have been longing for. Till then, may the best be with you forever. Love you, daddy!

International Marketing

2010-08-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

I find this paper to be a little different compared to the one I had in Tarc. I don't know why but I cant absorb a single thing into my mind. All I know about is Tesco which really didn't help much too as I don't do research. My mind can't function or I am lazy? Haha...I stayed at home for 3 days and I can't even finish Chapter 1. Lucky us, we are given the exceptions, we can write notes on a single piece of paper and bring in the exam hall. Now what I'm gonna do is to make sure that all my tiny little words fit into the paper. =) Cheerzzz!!

Sometimes and Many Times

2010-08-13T03:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I think I have all the things in the world,
Sometimes I think I have gotten a good bargain,
Sometimes I think I am surrounded by great people,
Of which are both interesting and of course, dependable,
And sometimes I think I really have the best,
Cuz when I look at myself, I saw the hardships on the rest,
And so I think I am way more fortunate,
For having all the blessings,the love that never end.

Sometimes I look out of my window,
My senses capture the blossoms flowers,
Thinking that the world is beautiful, just as fair and lovely,
Putting on a keen smile, shoulders high up, I walk through.
And so I took my path,
Self conscious, but feeling oh-so-great,
And I walk and walk and walk,
I begin to realize that life is not heaven made.

Many times I saw the despicable actions,
People fought and cast the evil spell,
It fears me, I had nothing to rely on,
Only hatred, and loneliness I pondered upon.
Oh yes, I don't understand,
Of why many times that people act in their best interest,
Putting themselves above all,
Loving themselves more than ever and always standing tall.

And so I asked my mum of why this ever happen,
Why many times that things are not what they seem,
That many times I thought of the clear blue skies,
I saw only dark clouds and the rain pouring.
My mum says the world is not made of cotton candy,
Soft and sweet, kind and promising,
It is never that fine and not really pretty,
This world is after all, many times harsh and rocky,

Memorable Day

2010-08-08T08:22:00.000+08:00

1st of August is the day we planned our one day trip to 5 different places, Birkenhead, West Kirby, Crosby, FormField and Southport. The day started off great, no rain, just a little cloudy. But is is superb cold! We have to hide inside Morrisons to warm up! And while we were in Morrisons, we came across lotsa beautiful roses, and I was just claiming how He never give me flowers before. And so I went to choose some biscuits and...pop! He bring me the flowers! I was shocked, I don't know what to say cause there are so many of my friends watching and I ended up asking WHY n WHY. I should have just shut up but anyway, it is a pleasant trip and of course, the flowers light up my day.

BirkenHead, it's famous for the park but I find it to be just acceptable. It has lotsa wild goose,ducks and some other animals that I never came across to.

Soon after we drop by Morrisons, this flower follow me to every other places we are supposed to go.

This is West Kirby, very outstanding sight of beach, You can actually walk on it during the low tide season. It has this amazing little road for u to take a stroll through it.

Crosby, I love it totally, this place is amazing. It has some built sculptures which stands on the sandy,soft and delicate sand.

Freshfield, another beach and it's kinda different from Crosby due to the geographical aspect and the landscape. It look more like a desert to me. LoL.

Southport, our last stop. By the time we reach there, it's already 7pm. We are freezing like craze, the weather took control. We managed to capture sunset moments but not up to my expectation, probably because of the cloudy weather.

This trip has too much to offer, we only managed to get a part of it from each places but I enjoyed it to the max already. =)

A date at the Cathedral

2010-08-04T04:57:00.000+08:00

The very first "me & him" outing here in Liverpool, and it could be the very last too here due to the tight schedule. It was never planned that way, we were actually going out with a bunch of friends but ended up everyone is busy. So we took our own sweet time to explore the cathedrals in Liverpool.

Cathedral of Christ the King, a modern and unique structure, amused us when we make our way there.

As usual, taking pixies before entering. =)

The interior design is really awesome. It's huge, it has hundreds of seats and looking spectacular. I have never seen such cathedral before.

We make a round along the cathedral, it was lovely.

Here I am, wanna just be in the photo,capturing the great details and elements of this cathedral.

Soon, we headed off to Liverpool Cathedral. This time, it is like the building in the years back then, looking very old but standing elegantly.

I myself prefer this cathedral, I love the way it is built. I love the sense of having to indulge into the European countries culture by seeing such exotic cathedral.

The candles representing the prayers by the people. It lights up their life.

The sunny day outside the cathedral.

Guess our date went on well. =)

Too much to write

2010-08-03T06:24:00.000+08:00

Before I came here, I was like "I will blog every single thing I do here". Now that I'm here, not only I don't blog every single thing, I can't find the time to blog at least a few thing. I find it depressing and I hope I have much more time to type all the beautiful memories here but my everyday is so filled with activities that I can hardly steal some little time to blog.

My weekday starts with making breakfast almost every morning (we took turns, so every alternate morning), rushing for classes, shopping in between, speed home to prepare dinner, doing the laundry, actively updating stuff in Facebook, and ends with a good sleep at 12.00/1.00am.

My weekend often ended up in miles away, enjoying the vacation, the short trips, the fresh air, the breathtaking scenery. Both Saturday and Sunday is spent so wisely that if without trips on the schedule, shopping will be on top of the list. And then head home, take the shower, fill the stomach and right up to bed.

I hope I can blog every single place that I went before, and blog every little things that I do here, but I just couldn't. Each day is full with activities to the maximum that even when I have extra time to blog, I choose to sleep and rest.

It's only a month away that I will leave Liverpool and I begin to miss it already. Liverpool is a total comfort and I love living here. The weather, the fresh air, the culture, the shopping center (I love the most), all these will disappear within a month. And how could I not jot down every single thing I do here? I hope I am able to from now onwards! I will!

Time, please wait!

2010-07-24T05:07:00.000+08:00

Is it just me or anybody else is doing the exact same thing?I don't have time to blog! Assignment's done but exam is coming up. Though day time in Liverpool starts as early as 5am and ends as late as 10pm, I still find myself having huge time limit. There are alot to be done, and all I ever do is hoping for tomorrow and tomorrow cuz 24 hours a day is a disaster for me. They are never enough!!

Happy Birthday, Mommy!

2010-07-21T17:58:00.000+08:00

Dear Mommy,

On this eventful day, I have deep regrets of not having to celebrate with you. Not only will I missed out your birthday, Daddy's and Huey's also as well. I wished I could fly back home and take you out for dinner, but looks like our dinner gonna be carry forward to October.

Mommy, I just wanna let you know that you being my mum is the best I could ever ask for. As protective as Daddy may be, you always strive to give us your best. I know at times there are some misunderstanding between us (who wouldn't have?) but from the bottom of my heart, I never meant to hurt you, ever.The bond we shared is forever treasured in my heart.

So here's the poem that I personally wrote for you. Mummy, you're too good to be true!

Life may seem difficult and impossible at times,

Hardships and failures, the unstoppable cries,

Embracing and loving me, I realized,

Your assurance is the best prize.

So for all the love you have for me,

Never could I ever repay you,

And also love is all that I have for you,

I will forever and ever be lovin' you.

Here you go Mommy..Knowing that I can't be there by your side on this memorable day, I searched for the best handbag that I think you would like. Hope you love it.

Happy Birthday Mummy! I love you!

What had I done wrong?

2010-07-16T03:24:00.000+08:00

I did the best I could in my Human Resource Management paper. I wrote all I knew. I gave the best answer I could ever thought off. But I failed myself badly. I thought at least I wouldn't have done so badly to the extent that I cannot even take another closer look to my marks. But indeed, I just couldn't. I don't know where had I gone wrong. I write like I used to for the past 4 years. I just didn't know where had I gone wrong.

Save me!

2010-07-07T19:34:00.000+08:00

Strategic purchasing!
Though I haven't start a slide of the notes I hope you save me on Friday!
Please!
T.T

Please Leave

2010-06-30T08:00:00.000+08:00

I don't understand. Perhaps I'm too naive. Or was I too young when we first started off. We don't seem to get along well anymore. Changes is constant. But it's getting in our way too much. I can't bear to hear those words anymore. I am numb towards it already. Please just stop. Leave if you want to. I won't stop you anymore. I'm tired. Way too tired.

Manchester

2010-06-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

Yay!Heading to Old Trafford! A place of which the famous stadium is located at!

1958: United players killed in air disaster

Seven Manchester United footballers are among 21 dead after an air crash in Munich. The British European Airways (BEA) plane caught fire shortly after take off this afternoon with 38 passengers and six crew on board. The footballing world is reeling from the loss of some of its most talented young players - known as the Busby Babes. Their average age was 24 and the diseased are: Roger Byrne, Mark Jones, Eddie Colman, Tommy Taylor, Liam Whelan, David Pegg and Geoff Bent. That's why they stop the clock.

We're outside of the stadium, overjoyed and wanting to give a nice shot!

The sun is shining through us and the stadium look majestic. It's huge and looking glorious. The lawn had been mowed though, however, the beauty still lies within. =)

A 100 years remark. It celebrates the 100 years of Old Trafford standing, still tall and bold.

I'm most excited to have the opportunity to enter the changing rooms. It is indeed spectacular as we got to actually be seated next to the jerseys and take loads of photos with them.

Here's Owen and Rooney! XD

The souvenirs outlet has alot to see, and they sell Jersey cheaply. I'm not a football fan, really, so I saved up a huge sum! It's time to head to Manchester City now.

Argghh! That day comes with shine and rain, but mostly rain. As soon as we reached Manchester Cathedral, the rain started to pour. It's not enjoyable to visit a city with umbrella. We only got a few great shots and quickly head to the John Rylands University Library.

The John Rylands Library, is a Victorian Gothic building on Deansgate in Manchester, England. The library, which opened to the public in 1900, was founded by Mrs Enriqueta Augustina in memory of her late husband, John Rylands. With more than 4 million printed books and manuscripts, over 41,000 electronic journals and 500,000 electronic books, as well as several hundred databases, the John Rylands University Library is one of the best resourced academic libraries in the country.

The structures are simply amazing and we went in with OohHhh and AaaHHhh. We were all amazed of how the building were build in such incredible structures materials. The deco impressed us as it has the touch of Gothic, and the entire Library has dim light.

Here comes another elements that make us stop and take some shots. The toilets has the Harry Potter elements and it's well taken care off except that it is a little creepy as it is darker than I have ever thought.

Wandering off the street. SooYean and me are tired of the rainy day! Still, we wanna look good and take great photos.

The railway. In no doubt, the trains look efficient. Way better than Malaysia's Lrt, Ktm, and Monorail. Haha.

I must say that each city in United Kingdom has this Ferris Wheel. I don't understand this. Perhaps it's the tradition here but I'm tired of seeing this everywhere in the city. Haha. Upon this, our Manchester one day tour end and we hurry back home. It's a great city to visit but i personally prefer Liverpool. =D

HRM sickness!

2010-06-19T21:06:00.001+08:00

Human Resource Management, or better known as HRM, this subject gives me massive headache. Haven't been around for 3 weeks, we are sitting for the first paper already. It's only a day away and I still haven't start anything yet.

HRM, don't fail me! Please!

Oh Miss Kampung Jambu

2010-06-17T20:29:00.000+08:00

Haven't been seeing her for almost a year. My best gossip friend, whenever we are together, we are living our life at the best and filling in with so much laughter. She is one of a kind, decisive, very strong and independent person of which I truly admire because I don't have the guts like hers to always stand up for herself. During school days we would have some argument along the way but always managed to patch things up. And calling me Gigi Jongang doesn't irritate me at all. In fact I am so used to it that I refer myself as Jongang too (only when I'm with her).

So to have spend the days oversea, here in Liverpool with her is definitely a dream come true for me. It's my pleasure to have known her and guess what, I think I know her better than she knows herself..Lol..

P/s: Babe when you read this, I'm not hoping for your agreement but at least, haha, acknowledgement of the things I've said. I truly believe that I know you too well.. =)

Liverpool Museum
Oh Boy!

Miss Kampung Jambu & Jongang

The lamb banana

Albert Dock again!

Posers!

The End.

Realistic Pretender

2010-06-09T04:16:00.000+08:00

Another chance, another shot. You show me the fake you again. Why on earth you have to be so fake? Why on earth that you have to always go to those who benefits you? Why you can be such great pretender that pretends nothing ever happen before and acted like you're so innocent? The way you carry yourself each and everyday had just make me realise that after all, you are not such a good friend anymore. You suck. Big time! Get a life ok!

Easy Way Out

2010-06-07T21:31:00.000+08:00

I called home once again only to know that my relatives cope very easily upon the death of my grandma. They all believe that after so much pain that my grandma had endured, she shall now be free, forever and always.

Grieving is just another alternative to allow myself to be sad. So I took the easy way out. I hang out with my friends, we went to Liverpool Museum and Walker's Art Gallery, I search for good bargains at Primark, had lunch in Albert Dock, and lose all our bets in Leo Casino. I put aside all the unhappy moments (not forgetting it) and let myself truly enjoy this beautiful city.

Here we are! Liverpool Museum!

Liverpool Museum - Lots to see, so we just quickly browse through!

Kids' Level

Ancient Dinosour

Walker's Art Gallery - The Naked Sculptures

Boys enjoying their time!=)

This is just adorable. We can't get this in Malaysia, can we?

Edwin & I

Self captured photo.

There are loads of rooms in it for viewing, this is one of them.

Resting..It's too huge!

Soo Yean and me imitating the sculpture.

The sailors we met while on the way to Albert Dock.

See the extraordinary building behind?

Albert Dock!

Sunny Day.

The mens.

Went to casino right after.

This is the end of the one day hanging around in Liverpool.

My Lost

2010-06-05T00:27:00.000+08:00

I woke up today to know the news that my grandma passed away at 7.30pm on 3rd of June 2010. I thought I was dreaming the worst dream ever. I returned the call to my mum, and they are already preparing the funeral. I am wordless, and helpless. Here I am in Liverpool, cannot even attend the funeral of my fragile grandma.

The last time I saw her in St. John home, I had this feeling that I am gonna miss her alot during the months that I'm away. I saw the look in her eyes, trying to connect with us, looking so vulnerable. She was on tube, she had bed sore and she look weak. I couldn't help myself but thinking "how much more time does she has?" I remembered she grab my little finger so tightly, and look at me without a word. As I walked out of that home, my heart wept. I couldn't bring myself to know that she is in such condition for about 7 years and I didn't make that much effort to visit everytime I'm back. I was thinking, "nevermind, I'll visit her much more often as soon as I got back from Liverpool". But who knows that exactly one week I'm here, she passes away.

I missed my grandpa funeral back in year 2006 of which I was sent to National Service camp for 3 months. I have so much regret that I am not able to pay him the last respect. And now that I am away in Liverpool for also 3 months, once again I am missing this important event in my life. Sometimes it makes me ponder, has that got anything to do with fate? My cousins went to United States and Singapore for further studies, but they make it home each time. Why not I? I only leave home twice for 3 months long. And funerals happen twice. Does that mean I cannot leave home for so long? I may sound superstitious, but really, I am starting to believe that fate really plays a huge role.

I wished I have that privilege to pay the last respect. I really wished I could.

Arriving at Liverpool

2010-06-03T04:37:00.000+08:00

It took me a couple of days to settle down. The flights were terrible, the food provided were just so-so, and my anxiety of waiting to arrive is slowly losing its way. But thankfully, Liverpool not only sounds good, it looks really good too. Pretty incredible, with the clouds moving constantly in the sky, and the historical building built all over the town, well, I am finally here! It really does amazed me to step onto this land, which vary so much from Malaysia, I couldn't help but fall in love, very deep love.

Oh Liverpool!

2010-05-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the day! 27th May 2010, 9.20pm, via Etihad Airways, and I'll be in another continent, another country, far away from the place I belong, and most of all, a brand new start for the summer semester.

I'm really not that excited, don't feel the rush of adrenaline at all. Everyone around me is so happy for me. They are so darling, friends wishing me all the best and making the effort to meet up, cousins wanna send me off, uncles and aunts giving away angpaos, mum & dad being overly worried, all these actually make me feel very, extremely fortunate.

There are so many times that I really felt so down for the fact that I'm going so far, but seeing all these actually changes my mind. Why should I even bother to feel sad when the whole world is so happy for me? I shall make that change myself. I shall be happy. I shall fly in Liverpool and enjoy the rest of the semester before it is over. I shall just be myself and take joy through the process. So Liverpool, I'm coming. Real fast.

The Same Old Her

2010-05-26T12:25:00.001+08:00

It never occurs to me that I would be sitting right beside her that very day. I guess what she says about fate is quite true. It's hard to deny the ultimate power of fate where we human often can only just plan and not control the consequences and the outcome. It is in my wildest dream tthat I will be ever able to have a drink with her, what more a long conversation. And it is to my delight that I see her as her normal self, probably with just a little changes here and there.

If there is anyone that I would like to spend more of my time with, my mind would eventually drew a picture of her. I missed her, terribly. True, there are many things that I don't wanna let go, and there are even more that I wanna hold tightly onto, but as much as I wanna hold them, they just slip away without me knowing it. It's hard to react sometimes, for I don't know what the future will bring us. But one thing for sure, I wouldn't let any chances slips away if I am given the opportunity again.

Words just ain't enough to describe what I felt about you. We are so near, yet so far. I wanted to shout aloud that I missed you, but I just couldn't do so that day. I wanna give you a big hug but my hands are frozen. I have my camera all ready but I'm just too afraid to ask for a picture with you. But no matter what may happen in future, whether we make it or not, there's always a place in my heart specially reserved for you. You may walk in anytime, it doesn't matter, and I promise you that you may also stay as long as you want. I loved you, always will.

You said you loved red, and that's why you chose red because there's no green. You insisted me to use it, and I told you I won't, but you know what, this pen will pen down every little story we share in the past and in the future to come. Thank you for being such great friend.

Quotes of Wisdom

2010-05-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

Here are some amazing quotes I found while googling the other day.
Have fun reading it and I hope it at least make some difference to some of you out there.

1. When life give you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have thousand reasons to smile.
Often life could be so tough, that it make us wanna just shed our tears uncontrollably, and no matter how much we have cried, things just wouldn't get better, or so we thought. We took every little unfortunate thing that happen to us in life very seriously and couldn't stop blaming and asking "WHY ME?". But instead of doing so, why not we be a little bolder, take gut in ourselves, stand out and prove that life is after all so simple (not easy), and just indulge in it, giving every reasons to smile to every little fortunate thing that ever happened to us. And you know what, my FAMILY is my EVERY reason to smile. And laugh. =)

2. Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.
I have never come across with this situation. I have friends who put up walls between us, but it had never came to my concern that perhaps these friends are there to put a test on the friendship, or maybe, they have so much to bear deep inside that they couldn't bring themselves to yell out to the world what is happening and therefore they kept all to themselves. And this quote just hit me real hard. If I have took a step out and ask, perhaps now I have another extra friendship in hand.

3. It's amazing how someone can break your heart, and you still love them with all the little pieces.
Funny how this quote actually proves its way to millions of people out there. And I'm also doing the exact same thing many times over the years. Human beings are fragile, it's hard to mend a broken heart, but as much as it is hard to do so, they would still hold tight and never let go. Hell yeah, I know somebody out there is doing this! I know how you're feeling but sometimes when it's time to let go, you shall let go. Love is about letting go.

4. I'm trying very hard not to cry over you, because every tear is a reminder that I don't know how to let you go.
Ever wondered the last time you ever cried for such person you terribly missed? There are so many times I cried over you, over what has happened, and I just couldn't stop. Even when I'm done,and I do tell myself that no point crying over you because you wouldn't know, but every now and then I'm still doing the same thing over and over again. And I guess it is so true that the more I wept, the more I cannot let you go. I really do miss you, missed so much about you,about us. I wished I could stop, I prayed that I will be alright but my dear, I just can't let you go yet.

5. To the world you might be one, but to one, you might be the world.

It seems to me that many people were taken granted by many other people in the world. They may seem to be useless, worthless, and were put aside. However, I believe that no matter how miserable a person may be, he or she will always be an important subject to somebody in the world. Somebody dear to them. And sometimes we don't really have to feel sad, because no matter what happens we will always have someone to lean onto.

6. There comes a point in your life when you realized who really matters, who never did, and who always will.

When I was young, there are so many people that I considered "important" and "well-worth". When I was young, I tend to take everybody as great friends even knowing that they won't do me any good. I'm 22 now, and I'm much more a wiser person today, and I have just realised that many people in my life is not that worthy anymore. And at the same time, I truly see those that worth every bit of my life and those are the people that I will count on in the days to come. After all, it is them who really matters at the end of the day.

7. When one door closes, another opens; but we often took so long and so regretfully upon the closed doors that we do not see the one that has opened for us.

Opportunity are everywhere. Chances are meant to be taken. But why when we fail, we automatically cannot see any other alternative? We are so into compromising with the failures that sometimes it is so invisible for us to take a step ahead. Life shall not be wasted just like that. Life is short, and we shall take joy in it. Why bother to grief over things that we cannot change? After all, in every door that closes, another really opens.

8. Live life with no excuses and love with no regrets.

I remember having so much responsibility in hand that I just gave excuses when I'm in need. No matter what I do, I would always keep in mind that "there will always be a tomorrow". And therefore all the things that should be done will be carry forward to tomorrow,and tomorrow, and tomorrow. It has been long that I always wanted to give my family a warm hug and to just tell them "I love you". I hope I'm able to do that one day, hopefully i'll not wait for those many tomorrow that I assume will always come. When people say live life with no excuses and love with no regrets, it seemed to be a mission impossible, because we all know that we will always regret many things we've done, but if we take the first step, learn to do things in a whole different way, we could really be living life without regrets and lovin it each and everyday.

9. It's only after someone is gone that you do realise how much you miss them.

Parting in the sense of one leaving another, whether for good or bad, is really not in my favour. I hate death. I really do hate death. I cannot bear losing people I love. There's always a piece of them they will eventually made you felt that there are so much to lose, to the extent that it will stay forever on your mind. I hate losing my sister, and sometimes I wish that 2012 will soon come true so that I don't have to witness the death of anybody and, die all-together. I cannot deny, however, the feeling of missing your loved one will always be there once you lose them, be it physically or mentally. Humans are like that. Taking things for granted. Not only till you really lose it, you will soon learn that you missed it. But it's too late. Way too late.

10. You've got to take the good with bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got and remember what you've had
Sometimes, to taste the meaning of life, the sadness and pain is in the package. Imagine you winning all the time, having great things 24/7, never lose anything in life, never to felt unhappy once, you will always tend to miss the value of true happiness. You have always got to lose something precious to you before you knew how to appreciate other things that are dear to you. True happiness is to always blend yourself through the unhappy little things that ever occur and try to put them back in a piece by taking all the goods and bads by loving them.

I personally think that in times we are down, it is good to just flip over and read some wisdom quotes. It really does help a person to understand and realise that life has so much to offer and if we are not aware of it, we might have really missed out something great. No point being tied down to something, and no point being such a passive person that always believe life is that miserable. We only live life once. ONCE. and THAT'S IT. Instead of being unhappy why not just take joy in it? Life is precious, always is.

Day out with my Buddy

2010-05-20T12:35:00.000+08:00

Surprisingly, we both wanted to have A&W after watching Ip Man. Since it has just opened we decided to try it out. Boy, that was one of the worst food I have ever tasted in my entire life. The Burgers are cold, the fries are unbreakable,and the only acceptable one is the Root Beer.

The quench-thirsting Root Beer.

OOhhh...the cold burgers...

It looks so delicious but it actually don't taste good.

We decided to settle down with ice-cream at Nagaria after our dinner. It has been a long day for us talking all the ups and downs. I appreciate you, for lending me your ears when i needed it. Trust me, it was a relieve talking to you. I know what you say is true, but there are many times I choose to be that silly person rather than a wiser one, in the hope that I could gain what I have lost. but I know it is impossible. I just knew.

Banana Boat

I could only thank you for the support, and believe me, I am doing the exact same thing if u ever needed mine.

Rachel's Wed

2010-05-19T20:27:00.001+08:00

We have been looking forward to this wedding of my eldest cousin and also the first cousin that will be walking down the isle. We had a long journey from Taiping to Kuala Lumpur, not forgetting to mention that we actually got lost! We started as early as 6am and we reached at 12pm. What a long way! The wedding turn out well, we had our lunch and proceed to check-in at Federal Hotel. The wedding dinner is located at Corus Hotel and we were so well fed! The cake served is super delicious! It is indeed rather a different wedding but all of us had real fun!

Here comes the groom!

Penguins are the symbol of their love!

Ohh the cakes were just as delicious as always!

My family

My mummy and little jingle bell

My cousin,Angel

Ponny tail and me

All the cousins!

I love the animation!

Babe and i

With the newly wed!=)

Precious Long Lost Great Friend

2010-05-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

I was going through the cards which have been received when I was in secondary school. Then a packet of it drop off..I look within, I saw so many of them, I recognised that hand-writting. The love letters, the apologies cards, the effort made for each birthday, I couldn't help but wanting to shout aloud that I want them more than anybody could.

The bond we shared so many years has always been kept inside my heart. It never once leaves. Every now and then whenever I see something that reminds me of u I would take the entire day looking back all the ups and downs we went through. And I couldn't stop thinking.

I remembered we once had a great fight, and we didn't talk to each other for about 2 days but we pulled through because of an apple. And we had a real great laugh,and we were talking like the old days non-stop. There is once you fell off the stairs, I didn't help you out but instead, I couldn't stop laughing! I was so bad, and you grumble over me being so mean, but you still forgave me.

Life was always busy back then, classes end and we have to rush to tuition. And we would queue in that long stairway to book the front seat. We both are lazy students, the homeworks are never done, and we would chat all the way even if the teacher is teaching. We often got punished together for being way talkative and failing to complete homeworks, but that was the thing I am missing right now.

If you now ask me what is the thing I missed so much that it may worth just anything in the world for me to just have that piece of it again, I would say you. Things doesn't go right from I don't even know when. I don't know where had I gone wrong, probably you felt that I care less about you and so we drifted apart. There are so many times I wished things were like back then, that no matter how bad the day may be, I would still have you to console me. You told me things are never going to be the same anymore, I pratically have no say, I felt powerless. I wanted to tell you the exact opposite way, that things can still be the same, but I doubt whether you felt the same way. I am happy for you though, for all the friends, love and happiness surrounding you, and sometimes I wished I'm part of your plan, but I know we had just lost it long,long ago.

At times when I look at your picture or when I bumped into you, deep inside of me I wanted you to know how much I have missed you. I wanna let you know that I have been longing everyday to be a part of you again. But these words just ain't coming out from my hell mouth. The truth is, nobody could ever replace you, not just anybody in the world. We don't belong together anymore. It takes both hands to clap. I wanna have you back but the situation just won't let me.

My dearest, I have truly missed you, so much.

My Outmost Aspiring Grandma

2010-05-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

She took care of me since I was discharged from Ng's Clinic. I stayed with her for about 7 years till I left for my primary school in Taiping. I remember staying with her in Butterworth. She would cook all sort of dishes, she would keep an eye on me every now and then, and she even accompany me to nursery for the two long years, everyday. I grew close to her, learning her mother tongue, we communicate in Hakka. She taught me how to be a filial daughter,that in order to live a great life, I should obey and take care of my parents. She is always full of live-learning lessons, she is that inspiring. Now that I'm 22 and she is 77, I begin to miss her more as everyday passes by. Time doesn't wait,and no matter how much I would love to spend time with her,I'd just have that limited time to do so. I miss her terribly and I love her even more.

So all of us decided to take her out for lunch in a Thai restaurant, hoping her to indulge in the delicious foods that we placed order on instead of her cooking for us. It was a memorable one,all of us enjoyed that meal so much.

I know time will never waits. I will love her and be there for her whenever possible. Because of her, I am a much better person today. =)

Mummy, You're the one I love!

2010-05-11T15:54:00.000+08:00

Mummy & Daddy
While waiting for the food..

Hawaian Chicken

Fish & Chips

Black Pepper Chicken Chop

Spagheti

Chicken Cordon Bleu

Chicken Chop

Banana Chocolate Cake

Blueberry Cheese Cake

Blueberry Cake

So here it comes again,Mother's day celebration. we decided to go western in the very last minute. Not too crowded,great atmosphere and cosy environment. I'm glad that we could all sit down to celebrate this meaningful day. Looking back, there are tons of things my mum had done for me and for this family. I couldn't count,it's way beyond my power to let it be countable, and the more she does,the more I couldn't repay her.

Two days ago, I lost my prepaid sim card or to be exact, I forgotten to top up and it got expired and not in service anymore. I am doomed. I couldn't tell why am I so sad. I put the situation on my sis and asked her if she is in this situation will she ever get upset over it? She says I am dumb to get upset over this dumb thing. But to me it is not dumb. It has sentimental value. My mum bought me that number. It means something special to me.

So even if I know I couldnt repay her for what she has done for me, at least I will try to keep all the memories we had together and of course all the things she ever bought for me, I hope I can keep them close to me. I need them to be with me..Maybe because I'm afraid that one day I will lose all of them and i cannot recall the little things that we had or done. I don't know why I am that way. Perhaps I'm little weird but I know I could live a thousand way better like this.

So mummy, Happy Mother's Day to you and may us celebrate this special day in years to come and more. I love you, totally.

Sleepless Nights

2010-05-04T23:53:00.001+08:00

If only I am her. If only i can sleep like her and not have to bother about the whatsoever world at the end of each day. A sleep like that is enough to provide me with a good start in the morning, a motivating and refreshing anew everyday. But I couldn't rest my head on my cosy pillow. I just couldn't!

I have trouble sleeping. I can't rest my eyes in the night. I would stay up to 4 or 5 a.m. in the morning and right just about to see the sun rise, I quickly sneaked into my room. I don't know whether it is the complicated thing that I have been thinking during the days or any other problems that have been bothering me that led me having trouble sleeping.

Of course, with this lifestyle, I usually yawn few times in a row during the day. I just can't help it. I am so sleepy during the day!Lol...

And yet knowing that sleeping in the wee hours won't help much, I still stay awake every single night. What is so wrong with me? I hope I could tell and I tried to change but nothing is going anywhere. It come to no avail. I am that sleepless monster at the night and also the inactive with heavy eyebags girl during the day. Yes, I am still that way...

In Loving Memory of You

2010-04-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

Everyday in some way,

Our thoughts are always with you,

In life we love you dearly,

In death we love you still,

They say time heals everything,

But we know this isn't so,

Because it hurts as much today,

As it did nine years ago.

Time passes real fast. Without me realising,it is already the ninth year my sister, Jia Yi had left us. I remember when she was first dianogsed with leukemia. She was five, and miraculously she managed to pull through even with the disease relapsing a few times. I had always have the thought that she will never, ever die. I don't believe in death afterall. Worst still, I prayed to God that I would rather myself being sick, NOT because I love her to much to see her bear the pain, BUT because I am jealous that my parents took care of her way better than me.

I don't understand many things back then. I blamed my sister because she was loved and pampered by my parents. I truly HATED her. I don't give a damn when she cried out loud in pain. I believe she is much more like a pretender. I had always,always go against her,if not ignoring her.

So when i was 13, she passes away without regaining consciousnes. Then it hit me. Real hard. She is DEAD. I will never hear her again. I cannot smell her body scent anymore. I can't see her through my naked eyes anymore. She will never be with us again. I weep during her funeral. As i hold her ashes, I still don't understand life, what more death. I cannot accept death, I fell on my knees. She is now forever gone. FOREVER.

It has been 9 years already. She would be 18 this year if she had survived. I had lived double of her life and more, but one thing visible to me is that, i never had lived my life any better than she had lived. She endured the pain knowing that she possibly cannot get rid of it ever. She faced death with guts and she never ask "WHY ME?". She is so much stronger than I am. She never let death stop her from enjoying life. She spent her life without regrets. Will I one day do what she does? I hope I can.

I loved her..My worst nightmare had came true and I regret the rest of my life that I never showed her that I loved her..I'm so sorry but there's no turning back for sure, but you know what..I am gonna spend the rest of my life loving her..

Beautiful morning with EXTRAORDINARY breakfast!

2010-04-26T12:50:00.000+08:00

This is one of the few breakfast i ever had in my entire world..I dont consume breakfast for the many years in my living..Yes it has been a fact that breakfast is good for health and that it sums up to make a good start for people but breakfast is just not my best friend..

And what more breakfast after a 1hour walk in the lake?Guess gonna gain probably half pounds or two..So YOU, better appreciate it that i'm doing for the sake of u..for the sake of u dun like k-box, for the sake of u dont like to kap-lui,etc..hahaha..

Egg on a toast?or toast with an egg?

Whatever it is,that visit is a worthy one!=D

Moments of Appreciation by YOU

2010-04-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

"u noe i always appreciated wat u did wert..
even the world is not appreciating,
still got me will...."

Time:12.37am

Date:24th April 2010

Venue:Fb chatroom

You know what,i really felt appreciated although it's a little forceful at first..hahaha..anyway,the same goes to you too..and u know i'll always stand by u and even if i can't,well,at least i'll try...=)

A piece of Thought

2010-04-16T01:11:00.000+08:00

Recently i came across a video introduced by my dear friend, and both of us can't help but to deeply acknowledge our sympathy towards ourselves for being such person that often took granted for so many things in life, and always to complain about just anything that pops up..
This video basically was a lecture by a man who will soon die due to pancreatic cancer which have been relapsing for several times..This man, chose to live his life in an energetic,curioustic, and willingful way to explore each and every day till his last breath..He talks about his achievements, his dreams, and he truly live life with no regret..And one thing that he stressed in his lecture was...

LIFE is all that matters, not DEATH..

I find this to be very amusing, because i have been fearing death for no reasons and i do nothing about my life!

There are so many things in the world that i complain about.Just the other day i was complaining of how the Mcdonald's cashier was so disgraceful and rude towards me, and then i complain about the flies, and then i came across something in FB that make me complain why i don't have that and people have that..And then i knew people that have the worst attitude in the world with the worst behavior, but they got what they want,they have plenty of friends,they have plenty of money,they have just everything! And soon i was complaining of why some of my trusted friends treat me in such a way that i don't feel i am worth a cent to them (in this case i wasn't complaining, i was actually feeling upset about it)...

Does all these really matters to me?So what if that cashier girl was rude?Why can't i let her be?So what if there were flies?Why can't i take away my lunch?So what if everybody seems to have everything in life?I HAVE MY FAMILY (and it means i am much more fortunate than so many already!)..So what if those people with zero level of ethics seem to do well?I believe they will soon be hit by somewhat disaster accordingly to what they have done in the past(what goes around comes around/karma)..And so what if i encounter those friends?Treat people they way u wanna be treated..Treat them the way they treat me..They make me feel i don't worth a cent?oh well,then they don't worth any single cent to me too!

Life is that easy if we all let them to be..Life is short,we all know that..But one thing we dont know is to take joy in it..We are so obsessed over good life that sometimes we don't even know we had so much in hand already..Until the last breath taken, most of us tend to fail ourselves..Only the last breath can awake us that many of our lives has been taken for granted,for sure..

I hope i can live a better life with much better perspective and thoughts in future!

Love of my life?

2010-04-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it is just hard to know and predict the future..Humans plan, God decides..I guess it is so true that sometimes many things u want it to turn out to be seem to turn out in a totally different way..How i wish i could read the future so that i could be equipped and always to know what to do and where to head..I know nobody has this ability...

BUT,

I'm glad i have u!

You're the sunshine, you're the rain..

with u i found the strength to carry on..

and i love u,totally..

but above all,

may the future bring us a a better gain..

Confirmation!

2010-03-11T17:19:00.000+08:00

Yes, finally i have gotten my results and i'm so glad to say i managed to pull through! Exams are always nerve-wrecking and the anxiousness in me is often at the max level..But this time it pays off just right and i'm more than happy to know that i will be departing via Etihad Airways on the 27th of May to Liverpool for my credit transfers..This is indeed a great news to me, and many of my coursemates! So Liverpool, wait for me!! =)

Cosy and Chilling Bukit Tinggi

2010-02-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

It's actually the substitute of the absence of Valentines during the first day of Chinese Lunar Calendar. Since it coincides with each other, we've decided that this year's Valentines to be off on a simple and short vacation up to the hill. Great place to be in, just a little isolated and sometimes inconvenient but somehow, with the fresh air and breath-taking view, it is worth that long highway to get there.

And sometimes, it doesn't really matter where we celebrate Valentines, because i truly believe that everyday is a Valentine if we spend it close to our hearts, by being together...

The CNY rush, and also knowing the significance of it

2010-02-08T21:09:00.000+08:00

It has always been fun to go shopping for groceries before the Chinese New Year! Checking out the cheapest price in town, many will rush to the hypermarkets to pick and load as much as they possibly can into the trolly, and it's just so magneficient that everyone has that urge to do so for at least once in a year, and boy, they did it good! *Thumbs Up*

I remember Chinese New Year to be different sometime back in the past, of which I was still a little girl and all I ever wanted is lotsa angpaos, drinking every flavour of the drinks, and playing hide and seek, AEIOU, pepsi & cola, pops-pops, snail racing which apparently was introduced by my late grandfather, etc...Chinese New Year back then was simple, easy, and never nerve wrecking...

But today, Chinese New Year carries a whole different meaning to me...Yes of course the angpaos still play that important role in CNY, however, getting together and reunited is a much more important and worth considering issue at the age of 22. I began to slowly realise that at the age of 12 and 22, the period between them is actually a change, a constant change of me, of the reality that I am facing now.

I may look back and thought of the things I did back then, little little things which put a smile on my face, but today, I tend to live my life in a different angle, of where I think it is more important to put a smile on others' more than to make myself smile. I'm saying this not out of pride or simply, to the acknowledgement of being a grown up that I knew how to make others' life to be meaningful. I am living my life to the best I can, and to take every chances possible to make a difference in the lives' of my loved ones. And that's why, the question that often pop up weeks before new year is always the questions of who and who will be back, where would we be hanging out TOGETHER, and not what and where will we play our games or have the dinner..

Chinese New Year is a tradition, a reunion of the loved ones and a rememberance that each of us living today is worth the trouble of driving or flying home from faraway lands just to sit together on that round table having that dinner. It is not any other normal dinner of every other nights, it is a dinner of all in one, of all the elderly and the young, altogether, for once in a year, and I think it is definitely worth all the hustle and bustle one could encounter.

And I totally heart CNY..! =)

It is wrong!

2010-02-04T03:57:00.000+08:00

It is wrong to have such thinking!

It is wrong to deny such responsibilities carried upon your shoulder!

It is wrong to have push the burden to a person of which he has no control on it!

It is so so so WRONG to have being said such words!

You should be SORRY!

And I MEAN it!

=)

2010-01-28T14:02:00.000+08:00

Smile as I should, the finals are over now!

haha..time to rock and roll and play hard!!

Last Finals (2010)

2010-01-07T21:47:00.000+08:00

Exam is around the corner once again..Finals is up, time to sit back and study again..And yeah, burn midnight oil again since it has been the norm of me being lazy...Funny how people can always study in time, and study before time, but not me..Why am I the last minute person?I'm glad somehow, because I would have trouble memorising so much before exams..I think I choose not to swallow every of the syllabus up way before exams is not very wise, but at least, i still do it to every possible way I could last minute, and I think it pays off quite well, if not good...Of course its not with flying colors always, however, I think I'm doing okay...

If i were asked whether I will actually regret or not being so lazy and not to take every chances in front of my eyes, I would say, I DO REGRET sometimes...I regret that I didn't took my studies a lil more seriously, I regret of not putting my studies as my priority, I regret of not making these moment in my life in the best way it could ever be, and the bottom line is, I really do regret that I didn't think of the hardships of my parents bearing my college fees, living costs, etc...I do regret..I DO...But why am I not taking any actions? Why towards the end of my semester I am still that lazy?I cannot figure it out..

Well it is a fact that no matter what I do now it will be too late..Im counting down to the days of my finals...12 more days to go...12 more days to study...12 more days to put up with everything i got and make the best for my finals!May the best be with me!!

Till Then..

2010-01-07T17:15:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the last day I'll be in Tarc as a student...

I will miss the college, despite of its not-so-convenient infrastructure sometimes,

I will miss canteens' food although there were stones and extra salt on the rice and dishes,

I will miss the toilets of Tarc despite the ever strong aroma,

I will miss the dripping air-cond in the tutorials' room which flooded the class,

I will miss the lecture halls that often blackout due to technical problem,

I will miss the lecturers even though some of them really make me sick,

I will miss the ever strict tutors and remember their teachings,

I will miss my friends and their companion,

I will miss my college mates for their joy and laughter shared with me,

I will forever do miss each and every little thing of my college...

Till then...

I'll take them close to my heart,

knowing that it will forever stays in my heart forever....

The end of my Tarc Days

2010-01-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

Week 14. The last week ever to step in this college...I remembered how young and naive I was when I first step into the college compound..I was amused, stunned of how big it was..And so I thought, "Oh, it's gonna be four long and fun years"!..True enough, it was, it was fun, it was enjoyable, it was everything, BUT it was not long..4 years is never long..End of week 14 indicates the end of my semester, the end of my status being a student...

I fear time..I fear losing things that i have now..We are mortal, i know, but why am i resist to change? Why am I fear to change? Why do i hesitate? I really loved being a student...A student's responsibility are merely, studying, attending to the assignments, and sitting for exams..It is just that..I don't understand why I long to grow up last time...I don't know why..And now I wanna just stay as a student...

Sigh..People does grow up...I grow up...My parents grow old..Soon I'll be like my parents too...The human cycle is so precious...and it is so short, short to the extend that if we let go one moment now, perhaps we will lose it forever...I hope i would be given extension..I hope i have some time to spare...I hope......and my hope will forever be just HOPE...

YOU..

2009-12-23T01:54:00.000+08:00

I know the truth within, but what can i do?

I relate u to an unknown season, of where u may give me

autumn sometimes,

spring at times,

winter most of the times,

and fall,

EVERYTIME...

Despite that,

i still have FAITH in you...

Shattered thoughts..

2009-12-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

It makes me ponder sometimes...Of why my life can be so miserable at times..Each time i can't help but to stumble upon the thoughts of me being hopeless..

I do not have things that people have..
I cannot achieve good grades..
I don't hear praises of what i did..
I fall upon something which is inappropriate..
I do not have the fortune of having some great person to lean on whenever i have problems..

And i thought hard..Does these make me less fortunate?
Does all these insecurities makes me felt inferior?
Am i doomed?

As the saying goes, "the grass is always greener on the other side"..Things are always seem better for others..We human always opt for something better in life..We want the best, we strive for the highest achievement, but does that mean that if one fail, there will be only the existance of failure? In failure, can we find success? In failure, can we find ourselves?

I may not be better than others out there, but i guess i am indeed far off better than many, many living beings out there..My life now may be troubled and disastrous, but im still holding my breath, looking for a brighter day tomorrow, hoping that life, will take me another step closer to where i belong...

I believe in you...

2009-11-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

11.40pm..I couldn't stop wondering...Many things in life happens for a reason, as people often say..But if there are reasons behind everything, how come those reasons were not made seen? Why it is so near, yet so far? Why there is uncertainties in me? Why do i doubt you? As i stare at the long highway right in front of my condo, i knew living is tough..Life is like a long, never ending highway..I taste bitter most of the times..I knew there will be failure..But why am I still holding on?..

Because I believe in faith...

I believe in you...

Dear's 21st Birthday

2009-11-17T17:10:00.000+08:00

It feels just great to be by your side during this significant event...I hope with my presence, this birthday of yours are made to be even more memorable...Happy Birthday to you my dear...May this be the best ever and may all the longings of your dreams do come true...I wish u the best in life, with much love and comfort all way long...Once again...

Happy 21st Birthday to you!

I am ME

2009-10-29T19:50:00.000+08:00

It's sad sometimes to know that i'm incapable of saving a friendship..Off many things that i have said and done, those were always been taken lightly..I knew myself more than anyone could understand me, and i doubt whether it's enough?..Is knowing myself sufficient of getting to where I should end? My best friend told me that "nevermind having lots of people who take us for granted, the bottom line is make the best out of everything you do"..It's afterall about giving in and living the life that i want to live.Nevermind having nobody by my side, nevermind having backstabbers, nevermind being ignored and nevermind being left out..Worst come to the worst, at the end of the day, it's me who take control of everything..I should decide where to head and what to be appreciated, and how my life would portray its colors..I should by now understand that nothing is worth my time and tears when the another party never ever put me in their eyes..

There will only be sadness if I allow it to be, but happiness will always stays if I open up my heart and let it bring out the best of me..Life is so short to the extent that I should never ever waste my time for people who don't take a second look on me..In fact, the very thing I should do and I am doing it now is to always, ALWAYS CHERISH MY LIFE...

The Beauty of Life

2009-10-13T18:45:00.000+08:00

The other day when i was waiting for my dear sister at her school, something caught my attention...Two boys, hand in hand, slowly taking their steps towards the school compound, smilling away...No, they were not homosexuals, they are mentally disabled students that attend special classes in that particular school...

Watching them talking endlessly with each other and protecting one another from the naked eye of the public, i don't see fear in them..They do whatever they wanted to do, they speak whenever they feel like speaking, and the bottom line is, they are happy with the way they are..They do not give a damn of how people may judge them nor did they ever care of how any individuals might respond to them..They are in their own world..

One of them, fearing his friend might fall, holding his friend's hand all the way out of the school gate right to the car..Gosh..This is the beauty of life..How MANY person actually does take care of their friend in such way? Where a mentally disabled person may have such beautiful thoughts of his friend's safety, why we as the ordinary living beings could not even lend a helping hand to our friend?

Life may be so comfortable sometimes that we actually took things for granted..

The little things we do in life are may have brighten up one's day..Even a smile carries a meaning..However, human are always very hesitant..Many does not give, but only take..If a mentally challenged person can be such a nice person, why not we?

Take a moment to think about this...

The grown ups of 5vt3

2009-10-02T13:54:00.000+08:00

I have always love my secondary school friends..especially those who were in 5vt3..Students of 5vt3 were and still are always full with excitement...They talk, they laugh, they play, they joke, and they even argue, and i'm actually proud to say 5vt3 are always well known of its mischief..I think that's what make us stand out among the classes..Teachers hate us, school prefects are often after us, students dislike us, however, i think all of us are comfortable with the way we are...

I remember us to be very cooperative, by willingly lend our exercises to any of our classmates who were in need..Yes, we copy homeworks, and we were so good at it that we did it every single day..=D..And i love Hari Kantin...We will work as a team and strive to achieve the best sales...And whenever there were SPOT CHECKS, we always stand as one...We helped each other to smuggle the illegal items to some other places and even to go against the so called "prefects"...

It's been four years since we left school..Those memories i had will always stay with me...So until today, we remain as usual...We hang out, we joke about the past, and we still care for each other much...We will always be that way..

I LOVE 5vt3!!!

My Big Day

2009-09-22T22:34:00.000+08:00

22th September 2009.

I'm officially 21 now.

Long road ahead of me!

@_@

I need to change!

2009-08-27T21:19:00.000+08:00

It is always true that whenever exam is around the corner i will automatically laze around as if i still have plenty of time to catch up whatever syllabus which i have not covered yet..I'm very much a believer of last minute preparation due to my failed mission of wanting to study from day one..Hence, it's clear and constant on my mind that last minute studies will do me better..Although there is an urge to study every now and then, i guess i just couldn't change my old self..well, not until i heard this..>>>>

"It's not about whether you can do it or not, it's all about whether you want to do it or not",

this particular phrase was brought up by a friend of mine..I cannot deny of how this statement actually proves itself right..

Many things in this world are made off by numerous reasons, and every single thing that comes across carry its own meaning..It actually blends with the statement above, which means, we are often capable to make decisions but most of us choose to make the not so appropriate decisions..Often, we are torn between decisions which are yet to be made, however if we take a closer look, every decision comes with a story behind it...There are so much things to be taken care off in life and believing that every steps took means something to us is a good start..

Well it's always easier to be said than to be done~~

For instance, i have massive responsibility on my studies and i am still sitting here blogging~

My first seating will be on the 4th of Sept 09, and hell yes, i am still not doing anything!!

People always tend to believe that they have such a long road ahead and that if they do not work hard now, they still got plenty of time waiting for them to finish whatever they have started..I am one of those people despite knowing that time flies and obviously, time doesn't wait..It's either you take it or leave it..But i guess i'm much more better than telling facts rather than actually practising what i should do...

I understand the whole lot of what i'm typing now but i'm just too reluctant to take the first step..

I seriously need to change..

I'm not just needing it, but i'm wanting it now..I do not want to look back in future and realise that there are so much to be done and yet i didn't do anything!

I want to work hard and work towards my goal!I want to be a person of no regrets in future!I want to be what i opt to be!I want to at least, finish what i have started..

So notes & books, i'm coming after ya~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Daddy's 49th Birthday

2009-08-19T20:02:00.001+08:00

15th, memorable day spent by doing amazing thing! It's my daddy's BIG DAY~~He's 49 now! Of the 49 years of living, not a single day passed by being taken lightly. He cooks, he cleans, he sweeps, he mops, he washes, he is the driver, he is the gardener, he is the teacher, he sleeps at 2am just to wake up at 6.30am, he makes me milo and two half boiled egg every morning before i set off to school, he goes to the market, he prepares lunch, to me, he is superb! He is incredible! He really makes me ponder of how 24/7 is sufficient of doing so many things..I adore him, i am amazed of his capabilities..
He didn't smoke, he didn't drink either, to him, FAMILY is his priority..He'll lower down the air-cond's temperature if any of us were caught sneezing, he'll prepare at least 2 types of vitamins on the table every lunchtime, he'll cut the fruits ready every time after dinner, and he gives us appropriate medication if we are down with flu or fever, my dad is just a full-time dad..He do so many things that i could not even pen down..
My dad always says, "If a person really wants a thing, he will in his power to do everything to achieve it", which is why he NEVER forced me to study or even to do other things..He will always goes on with that statement, and it works actually, because i felt guilty somehow..
The way he brings us up is just so different..He believes in hard work, he stands on his principles, he never gives in and he never gives us up! But he strongly don't encourage us to buy, buy, and BUY when it is not necessary..haha..Well, that's my Daddy~~

So this year, my mummy came up with the idea of giving my dad a surprise by bringing a cake over to the school and also pizzass for all the staff for the celebration..

He didn't knew that we were coming..SURPRISE SURPRISE~~~

Happy Birthday to u,
Happy Birthday to u,
Happy Birthday to Daddy,
Happy Birthday to u~~~~~~~

Blow the candles~~~

Daddy's cutting the cake now~

We ordered 6 large pizzas..Everybody is well served!

Daddy & me~I love u,daddy!

Us and daddy's friends..

Later on at the night, we went to Soon Soon Lye restaurant to have dinner...However, the food is not really up to expectation..Well i guess no matter how bad the food tastes, as long as we are sitting down and having the dinner together, nothing really matters anymore! We bought him a handphone for his birthday and yeah, i think it's the best birthday present for him as he has been grumbling alot of how his cell cannot be used to capture his guinea pigs photos..=)

We are one!=)

Daddy~~

The dishes in Soon Soon Lye~

Daddy, u are one such person in the world that nobody could ever take ur place for whatsoever reason it is..It's u, who make my life a even more memorable one!

Happy Birthday to u and I totally,wholeheartedly LOVE u!=)

Babylon Cafe

2009-08-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

It has been ages since my college friends and i went yumchar..After considering among all the cafes, Babylon Cafe in Kepong was chosen..Environment wise is pretty good but the place is rather deserted..And guess what, it's not YUMCHAR...it's TIGER time~~~~xD

"You want some?"

"Pray before u drink"~

edwin n i

Ooohhh..i totally DON'T love Tiger~

"arrghhh..Don't leave me babby"

Gentle her

"I sell beer for a living"

Cass's Birthday Party

2009-08-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

Well, Casswen is a friend i knew since the Mass Call of my diploma orientation. From strangers to classmates, we have been hanging out close to 4 years and all these years that i remember, every 16th of August is a must to have celebration for her!haha..
It's raining cat and dogs at 5.30pm!!Finished class at 6.15pm, having to drive home to get ready, not forgetting to collect the 3kg with the key shape cake, and so, we are supposed to reach at 7pm but we ended up reaching at 9pm. We settled down and proceed to the food immediately upon arrival...The party ended pretty fast after several of musical chairs and non-stop flashing..Anyway, Happieee Birthday to u, Casswen once again!=)

Tarc gang @_@

The 38 Sosoh~XD

Our present to Casswen~

Happie birthday to u~

Me & most loved beibei~

I am officially a blogger~~

2009-08-13T15:49:00.000+08:00

Yes! Now i can write all my ups and downs, my laughters and tears to this specially designated site...I am an avid reader of peoples' blog and i don't know why that it suddenly run through my mind that hey, if i don't write down every little details of my life, will i wake up one day forgetting all the things that i have gone through before? And so, this site is created!haha..well life is afterall about memorising every here and there so that in 20years time, i can come back again and refresh my little route taken back then...=)