I remembered since day one I work for Maybank, this calm looking lady has always been around. She would sit on a stool beside the escalator and place a tissue-contained box on her lap. With a smile and a will, she quietly attracts passers-by to buy the tissue papers from her. She is blind. She has no eye sight.
As i make my way up the escalator, I put myself in her situation. If i wake up one day knowing I can't see, I think I'll go paranoid. I tried closing my eyes as if I have lost my eye sight, and within seconds, I quickly opened them. I thought and thought. Being a normal person, I had it all, all complete. I have a whole lot of choices of food and I'm still being picky. I spend hours in my wardrobe to dress up to my best. I can take close look on my family and friends, I am able to tell if they have a new haircut and how well they are doing. Because I can see. I have eye sight. But many times I make mistakes. I got upset when I see things that are not in my favour. I don't always do things that I am suppose to do even there is a need to complete them. I sometime fell off the road while crossing. I choose to believe in my eyes rather than judging from my heart. I see false perceptions all the time but I believe they are the truth. I have eye sight. And I doesn't make full use of it. Or should I say, having eye sight still makes me a careless, terible, ignorant person?
I'm feeling so down for the past one month. I put on a mask whenever I'm around people. Friends that care enough to know, they can see right through my expression. I smile, I laugh, I talk, but a huge part of me is aching. Despite these, my courage to face my problem is obviously less than that visually impared lady. Despite knowing that she can no longer see the colors of life anymore, she still have that strong will to live. She doesn't know what her food will look like. She wouldn't know what is she wearing. She doesn't know who's by her side. She will have a hard time taking care of herself. She is direction blind. The lists goes on. But she knows one thing for sure. She knows how to make the best out of it. She knows how to carry on life.
People ask "What can be worst than losing your eyesight"?
And God answers "Losing your vision".
It is true. But how many people can do that? If they are hit by the reality that they will soon not being able to see this world anymore, what is the first thing on their mind? Will they cry and cry and lose hope? Will they choose to end their life? Will they blame others or simply, noted that it is their destiny? A 20 year old boy discovered he has brain tumour years ago. The doctor gave him two choices. "His eyes, or his life". He chose his life. Today, he is one successful top SPM scorer in the country. He managed to live his life. He does not lose faith. He succeeded in whatever he wants to do.
I think life is all about destiny. It is all about fate. Take a moment and think about this. Why do people smoke and not getting lung cancer? Why people who are health conscious but ended having cancerous cells in their lung with no records of smoking at all? Do you think that this is not fair? Don't you think that if you practise a good lifestyle, the chances that you will most likely to live a healthy life is very high? And why the unfortunate things still happen? FATE.
It's all about FATE, that's what my dad told me. If it's destined to be you, it will be you no matter how much precautions you take. If it's never you, you can endanger your life to what-so-ever reasons and yet you will still stand on this planet looking great. I hate to admit this fact, really. Being mortal doesn't feel right. I'm just as ordinary as anyone out there. I will feel pain, I will shed tears. But what more can I do? I cannot predict the future. I don't know what will happen to me next minute.
People don't know how fine is the line between life and death.
And that is when people start to take things for granted.
I want to really cherish my life.
I want people around me to feel good.
I want them to feel loved and I want to be their strength.
I want them to lead a fulfilling life, forever more.
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