The Break Up

6 years relationship.

Shared the world.

Tasted the heaven.

Love like no other.

It ends. Yes, it ENDS. She couldn't help it. A relationship that she has been clinging on so long, way too long, and it ends, right now. "WHY?", she asked. She couldn't understand. He dump her because of career, because of his future. The question is, "IS HE SELFISH?"

Love itself is fair. He loves you, you love him. But love cannot guarantee happy ending. He wanted to take another step, a step nearer to his career, to a better life. And he is not comfortable with long distance relationship anymore. He's afraid that it might took him too long to be away. He cannot stand the pain of not having you by his side. Even so, knowing you could wait, he still stand upon his decision, he cannot tolerate long distance relationship, not anymore. Well oh, that's what he said. So he choose to end it. So he gets the career, and you get nothing. "IS HE SELFISH?"

Rationally speaking, YES, he is SELFISH. 6 years. Not short. 6 years is as long as completing a Degree and even a Masters. 6 years after, he claimed that he is NOT SURE. Not sure of whether you are the one. Not sure of whether how long this relationship can work. Not sure of everything you ever had with him. Not sure of the vow both of you made. Not sure of the love that reunites you and him. If he is ever that "not sure", he should have done so few years back before he further his studies. He should have let you know that this love-story might not work in future. But he gave you the world, he made you believed in him. And he is leaving you now. So he is selfish.

But again, in LOVE, there is nothing right and there is nothing wrong. Yes, he chooses his career over you. He said he is uncertain of the love he had for you. He is not sure whether you can be the Miss Right. All these doesn't happen overnight. Sometimes as we grow, we see lots of things, we venture into new environment, we think from a different perspective. And this "sometimes", tend to lead us to another angle of which it may entirely change ourselves. In love, there is no such thing as selfish. Yes he changed. And sometimes you don't even need a reason to change. A person is capable enough to know when the feelings supposed to twist and turn. He might sounds like he is coming up with lotsa reasons, lotsa uncertainties, lotsa excuses perhaps, and as much as you don't wanna let go, as much as he is probably doing the wrong thing ethically, still, there is no wrong to it. 

He might be thinking of himself only, and it sounds unfair to you, but did you ever think that if he is uncertain and he still carry on, and probably another 6 years later, one fine day he wakes up, and he knew that there is no turning point, decides to leave you, wouldn't that be a little too much for you? Positively thinking, although it has been 6 years, but isn't that better to end it now rather than another few years to go and you still end up like this?

Babe, love come and go without you noticing it. Sometimes it is a fairytale, but many times fairytale never exist. You got to stumble and fall quite a few times before you finally meet the right one. Appreciate the love you had with him, endure the pain of losing him, and stand up to be the girl I once knew, again. You lost the battle, it may cost your everything, however in this world, there are so much to offer. Losing him doesn't mean losing yourself. You may need a long time to get over him, and it's okay. We understand. But you, it's you that determine whether to get up or to continue falling. 

Remember, 

no man in the world is worth your tears 

unless 

they shed theirs for you too.