YOU..

I know the truth within, but what can i do?

I relate u to an unknown season, of where u may give me

autumn sometimes,

spring at times,

winter most of the times,

and fall,

EVERYTIME...

Despite that,

i still have FAITH in you...

Shattered thoughts..

It makes me ponder sometimes...Of why my life can be so miserable at times..Each time i can't help but to stumble upon the thoughts of me being hopeless..

I do not have things that people have..
I cannot achieve good grades..
I don't hear praises of what i did..
I fall upon something which is inappropriate..
I do not have the fortune of having some great person to lean on whenever i have problems..

And i thought hard..Does these make me less fortunate?
Does all these insecurities makes me felt inferior?
Am i doomed?

As the saying goes, "the grass is always greener on the other side"..Things are always seem better for others..We human always opt for something better in life..We want the best, we strive for the highest achievement, but does that mean that if one fail, there will be only the existance of failure? In failure, can we find success? In failure, can we find ourselves?

I may not be better than others out there, but i guess i am indeed far off better than many, many living beings out there..My life now may be troubled and disastrous, but im still holding my breath, looking for a brighter day tomorrow, hoping that life, will take me another step closer to where i belong...

I believe in you...

11.40pm..I couldn't stop wondering...Many things in life happens for a reason, as people often say..But if there are reasons behind everything, how come those reasons were not made seen? Why it is so near, yet so far? Why there is uncertainties in me? Why do i doubt you? As i stare at the long highway right in front of my condo, i knew living is tough..Life is like a long, never ending highway..I taste bitter most of the times..I knew there will be failure..But why am I still holding on?..

Because I believe in faith...

I believe in you...

Dear's 21st Birthday

It feels just great to be by your side during this significant event...I hope with my presence, this birthday of yours are made to be even more memorable...Happy Birthday to you my dear...May this be the best ever and may all the longings of your dreams do come true...I wish u the best in life, with much love and comfort all way long...Once again...

Happy 21st Birthday to you!

I am ME

It's sad sometimes to know that i'm incapable of saving a friendship..Off many things that i have said and done, those were always been taken lightly..I knew myself more than anyone could understand me, and i doubt whether it's enough?..Is knowing myself sufficient of getting to where I should end? My best friend told me that "nevermind having lots of people who take us for granted, the bottom line is make the best out of everything you do"..It's afterall about giving in and living the life that i want to live.Nevermind having nobody by my side, nevermind having backstabbers, nevermind being ignored and nevermind being left out..Worst come to the worst, at the end of the day, it's me who take control of everything..I should decide where to head and what to be appreciated, and how my life would portray its colors..I should by now understand that nothing is worth my time and tears when the another party never ever put me in their eyes..

There will only be sadness if I allow it to be, but happiness will always stays if I open up my heart and let it bring out the best of me..Life is so short to the extent that I should never ever waste my time for people who don't take a second look on me..In fact, the very thing I should do and I am doing it now is to always, ALWAYS CHERISH MY LIFE...

The Beauty of Life

The other day when i was waiting for my dear sister at her school, something caught my attention...Two boys, hand in hand, slowly taking their steps towards the school compound, smilling away...No, they were not homosexuals, they are mentally disabled students that attend special classes in that particular school...

Watching them talking endlessly with each other and protecting one another from the naked eye of the public, i don't see fear in them..They do whatever they wanted to do, they speak whenever they feel like speaking, and the bottom line is, they are happy with the way they are..They do not give a damn of how people may judge them nor did they ever care of how any individuals might respond to them..They are in their own world..

One of them, fearing his friend might fall, holding his friend's hand all the way out of the school gate right to the car..Gosh..This is the beauty of life..How MANY person actually does take care of their friend in such way? Where a mentally disabled person may have such beautiful thoughts of his friend's safety, why we as the ordinary living beings could not even lend a helping hand to our friend?

Life may be so comfortable sometimes that we actually took things for granted..

The little things we do in life are may have brighten up one's day..Even a smile carries a meaning..However, human are always very hesitant..Many does not give, but only take..If a mentally challenged person can be such a nice person, why not we?

Take a moment to think about this...

The grown ups of 5vt3

I have always love my secondary school friends..especially those who were in 5vt3..Students of 5vt3 were and still are always full with excitement...They talk, they laugh, they play, they joke, and they even argue, and i'm actually proud to say 5vt3 are always well known of its mischief..I think that's what make us stand out among the classes..Teachers hate us, school prefects are often after us, students dislike us, however, i think all of us are comfortable with the way we are...

I remember us to be very cooperative, by willingly lend our exercises to any of our classmates who were in need..Yes, we copy homeworks, and we were so good at it that we did it every single day..=D..And i love Hari Kantin...We will work as a team and strive to achieve the best sales...And whenever there were SPOT CHECKS, we always stand as one...We helped each other to smuggle the illegal items to some other places and even to go against the so called "prefects"...

It's been four years since we left school..Those memories i had will always stay with me...So until today, we remain as usual...We hang out, we joke about the past, and we still care for each other much...We will always be that way..

I LOVE 5vt3!!!